One (A-Deen)

2019-10-25 Miss Poison Honesty, Writing Agony, Authenticity, Depression, Dread, Fall, Fighting, Healing, Honesty, October, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Scorpio Season, Unhappiness, Writing

один (1). "Overwhelmed. Disappointed. Hurt. Sadness. Grieving. Struggling. Stabbed in the back. Empty. Trapped. Darkness. Silence. Isolation, but I'm not lost. Beauty in chaos. Trying to find a way back to myself. Living in truth. Attempting to heal. Gunpowder and lead. Through authenticity; anything is possible. And yet, very few people understand that you can … Continue reading One (A-Deen)

Instagram > Reality

2019-06-202019-06-20 Miss Poison Honesty, Truth, Writing Facts, Honesty, Ideas, Learning, Life, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reality, Truth, Writing

I was stupid-ish for thinking I'd be okay post-procedure. Pain that is complex, high fevers, stomach related issues, and where did all these bruises come from? Is life even worth it? I often ask myself this question. I struggle every second of every day to survive in tact. This is NOT the life I signed … Continue reading Instagram > Reality

Personal Public Service Announcement: Mother’s Day

2019-05-112019-05-11 Miss Poison Mother's Day, Writing Adult Orphans, Heartbreak, Honesty, May, Mother's Day, Motherless Daughters, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

Late-March into May is a difficult time for me. It's when my e-mail accounts (personal and professional) slowly become flooded with Mother's Day prompts. Last year, I deleted roughly sixty companies from my regular list because it was obnoxious and triggering. I wish I'd deleted more. This year, I almost certainly will do my best … Continue reading Personal Public Service Announcement: Mother’s Day

People With Anxiety

Image 2019-05-052019-05-06 Miss Poison Anxiety, Images/Photos/Quotes Anxiety, Honesty, Images/Photos/Quotes, Pieces Of Me

Over the past few months, despite treatment, my anxiety has gotten worse. I believe my pain getting worse is part of it, but won't know more until later on in the month. All I know in this moment is that my eye is twitching from anxiety and stress, and I've been informed my Complex-PTSD is … Continue reading People With Anxiety

Days On The Ledge

2019-04-24 Miss Poison Images/Photos/Quotes Anxiety, Bad Days, Honesty, Images/Photos/Quotes, Intuition, Panic Attacks, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Strength

I'm not a good actor, ask anyone who truly knows me. I don't excel at faking things with bullshit, smiles, and pretend laughter in an attempt to project that "Everything's great." When people try that with me, I wonder what they're trying to prove by lying. This morning, I was on that ledge. I'm not … Continue reading Days On The Ledge

From Scratch

2019-04-032021-04-03 Miss Poison Honesty, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anxiety, Authenticity, Chronic Pain, Depression, Effort, Emotions, Erased, Feelings, Fibromyalgia, Health, Honesty, Learning, Life, Migraines, Musings, Observations, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Thoughts, Truth, Trying, Untreated Pain, Writing

Two days. That's all it took to completely erase me. My entire past and much of the present; things I've held onto tightly because I believed I had something in life worth fighting for. I still had hope. I believed in the responsibility. I believed in keeping specific things, and people, alive, and sacred. Now, … Continue reading From Scratch

Taco Tuesday Humor

Image 2019-03-122019-03-12 Miss Poison Humor, Images/Photos/Quotes Humor, Images/Photos/Quotes, Pieces Of Me, Taco Tuesday

Thank the good Lord I make my own. For some reason, I prefer doing it myself (Kitchen control freak), unless they're fish tacos. I will gladly step aside for anyone who will willingly make them.

Eighty One Years Old

2019-03-08 Miss Poison Family, Uncategorized In Memory, My Grandmother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

It's International Women's Day, but it's also the anniversary of the passing of my Grandmother. This year, I choose to honor one over the other. Obviously, I'm going to choose my family. My Grandmother helped raise my brother and I, and she did so happily. She lived directly across the street, and was a solid … Continue reading Eighty One Years Old

Musings Of An Unquiet Mind

2019-02-082019-02-08 Miss Poison Family, Friendship, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Writing Family, February, Friendships, Honesty, Images/Photos/Quotes, Life, Love, Loyalty, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Protective Nature, Relationships, Toxic People, Writing

My closest friends and family, my loved ones, are the absolute BEST reflection of who I am. When you have healthy self-respect, self-esteem, dignity, a seemingly unending source of inner strength, and an innate sense of self, you don't wait for some mythological superhero to rescue you. You're your own damn hero, and I'm SO PROUD of … Continue reading Musings Of An Unquiet Mind

Dosvedanya Yanvar (Goodbye January)

2019-01-312019-01-31 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Honesty, Injury, Musings, Pain Management, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I mostly rank this month with a gigantic middle finger. January did me dirty in more ways than one. I don't really know how, when, or if I'll recover from the deeper damage caused. I saw the spine specialist this week. He gave me three options as a potential diagnosis and then tried to send … Continue reading Dosvedanya Yanvar (Goodbye January)