Today is the funeral of a friend of the family who died as a result of Covid 19. My brother is there now, and there's nothing I can do except be encouraging, even though it puts me into the headspace where I relive every funeral I've ever been to. Funerals aren't usually anyone's cup of … Continue reading Discussions of Funerals and Such
Reality
Confrontation
Anyone who has read my work for more than a month or two can likely tell you basic things about my character. My friends can tell you precisely who I am and what I stand for. My own brother has described me as, "The last person I ever want to disappoint because you're scarier than … Continue reading Confrontation
Instagram > Reality
I was stupid-ish for thinking I'd be okay post-procedure. Pain that is complex, high fevers, stomach related issues, and where did all these bruises come from? Is life even worth it? I often ask myself this question. I struggle every second of every day to survive in tact. This is NOT the life I signed … Continue reading Instagram > Reality
Antonin Artaud wrote…
“Antonin Artaud wrote on one of his drawings, "Never real and always true," and that is how depression feels. You know that it is not real, that you are someone else, and yet you know that it is absolutely true.” ―Andrew Solomon
I Never…
"I never paint dreams or nightmares. I paint my own reality." -Frida Kahlo
Incurable
***Potential Trigger Warning*** Friday night, I stupidly read my new diagnosis for the first time. And then I sat here in tears. The old diagnosis, which I've had for a long time, is … Continue reading Incurable
The Only Thing Worth Writing About Is People
“The only thing worth writing about is people. People. Human beings. Men and women whose individuality must be created, line by line, insight by insight. If you do not do it, the story is a failure. There is no nobler chore in the universe than holding up the mirror of reality and turning it slightly, … Continue reading The Only Thing Worth Writing About Is People
Writers And Artists Build By Hand
“Writers and artists build by hand little worlds that they hope might effect change in real minds, in the real world where stories are read. A story can make us cry and laugh, break our hearts, or make us angry enough to change the world.” ―Grant Morrison
Which Is The True Nightmare?
“Which is the true nightmare? The horrific dream that you have in your sleep or the dissatisfied reality that awaits you when you awake?” ―Justin Alcala
Don’t Focus On What Was
“Don’t focus on what was. Look forward to what can be, and then do all you can to make it a reality.” -Paula Michele Adams
