Black New Moon In Taurus

Closing out the month of April on a high-ish note. Change is coming, and I am preparing for it to the best of my ability. This month was rough, and I am trying to recover to avoid issues with trauma moving forward.

Anyone who has been reading my work for more than a year knows May is a difficult month for me, filled with loss, mourning, and more tragedy than any one person should have to endure. I am hoping this year, it’ll be far more positive. To start, a very close friend is moving to the area and I look forward to spending time with her and (finally!) having some fun, as well as mutual respect and appreciation. Most of my closest friends live overseas, so it’s not like I can call them and ask if they’d like to see a movie, go hiking, shopping, or simply have dinner together. It’s a luxury and a privilege to have my friends close at hand, so I am excited she will be here soon. 😊

If I’ve learned anything in life, it is to go where I am most appreciated and valued. Anyone who chooses not to see the real me is someone I do not want, or need, in my life. They can take their negative energy and vile attitude somewhere else. I don’t deserve the bullshit, and yes, I am working on a piece where this subject will come up. I don’t play games and I’ve reached my boiling point. Unfortunately, I have simply been too sick the last few weeks to complete what I’ve been writing, but I assure you I’m getting there. Slowly, but surely.

Bright Blessings, one and all.

That’s Why I Want You There…

“That’s why I want you there,” he said. “You’re unpredictable, and that can be the difference between success and failure. Most people make decisions in anger, fear, love, or obligation. You make decisions to irritate people.” ―Kim Harrison

This never ceases to amuse me.

Days…

I was up early this morning. I’m going to tackle what I can today (Important mid-Spring cleaning.), and whatever can’t be tackled today can be done another day. Bits and pieces until it’s clean, packed up, and done. It’s hard to think about, especially coming off of a week full of pain, sickness, and stress. I’m still not one hundred percent okay, but I also don’t expect to be any more. My neck is apparently getting worse, and yes, I’m about to make appointments with new doctors to see if I can find a good fit.

I’m so fucking tired of showing up, though. 😒 Not just tired, but fed up.

Modern Medicine Fails People With Chronic Pain

https://www.wired.com/story/modern-medicine-fails-chronic-pain/

This is not dissimilar to stories I have heard and things I have personally experienced from age eight into adulthood.

This story is adapted from The Song of Our Scars: The Untold Story of Pain, by Haider Warraich.

There’s Something About A Place…

“There’s something about a place you’ve been with someone you love. It takes on a meaning in your mind. It becomes more than a place. It becomes a distillation of what you felt for each other. The moments you spend in a place with someone… they become part of its bricks and mortar. Part of its soul.”
Cassandra Clare, Lord of Shadows