One (A-Deen)

2019-10-25 Miss Poison Honesty, Writing Agony, Authenticity, Depression, Dread, Fall, Fighting, Healing, Honesty, October, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Scorpio Season, Unhappiness, Writing

один (1). "Overwhelmed. Disappointed. Hurt. Sadness. Grieving. Struggling. Stabbed in the back. Empty. Trapped. Darkness. Silence. Isolation, but I'm not lost. Beauty in chaos. Trying to find a way back to myself. Living in truth. Attempting to heal. Gunpowder and lead. Through authenticity; anything is possible. And yet, very few people understand that you can … Continue reading One (A-Deen)

Of Pain You Could Wish Only One Thing

Quote 2017-08-06 Miss Poison Quotes Agony, Chronic Pain, George Orwell, Pain, Quotes, Torture

“Of pain you could wish only one thing: that it should stop. Nothing in the world was so bad as physical pain. In the face of pain there are no heroes.” ―George Orwell

The Aftermath

2017-05-152017-05-15 Miss Poison Writing Abandonment, Agony, Being Real, Blackouts, Depression, Fibromyalgia Pain, Honesty, Isolation, Migraines, Misery, Needing Help, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Suicide, Triggers, Writing

*Potential trigger warning* I survived, and I'm always sorry when I do. Always. Last week, a member of my family overdosed on prescription medication. It wasn't painkillers or anything like that. In fact, I have yet to look the drug up, but I do know what it isn't. It's not lethal if you're taking it … Continue reading The Aftermath

It’s Possible To Feel Worse

2017-05-06 Miss Poison Writing Agony, Fibromyalgia, Health, Migraines, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

Just when I thought it wasn't possible to feel any worse than I have these last few weeks, I woke up this morning and the pain is at an all-time new high for INSANITY. You know those pain scales every doctor's office has posted with idiotic faces? There is no logical way to say "Oh, … Continue reading It’s Possible To Feel Worse

Silent Nausea

2016-11-18 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Agony, Anguish, Emotional Pain, Failure, Friendship, Health, Honesty, Invisible, Life, Listening, Pain, Personal Perception, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Torture, Useless, Worthless, Writing

I've felt the need to be silent this past two weeks. There are millions of thoughts in my head, things I've love to put into a cohesive pattern, but I honestly cannot bring myself to do so. I'm physically, mentally, and emotionally too drained. I am sure many people feel the same way. I will … Continue reading Silent Nausea

Of Pain…

Quote 2016-09-01 Miss Poison Chronic Pain, Pain, Quotes Abuse, Agony, Chronic Pain, George Orwell, Quotes, Torture

“Of pain you could wish only one thing: that it should stop. Nothing in the world was so bad as physical pain. In the face of pain there are no heroes.” ―George Orwell

As Real As It Gets

2015-08-122015-08-12 Miss Poison August, Being Real, Depression, Emotional Pain, Emotions, Empathy, God/Goddess, Grief/Grieving, Honesty, Inner Voice, Intuition, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Rebirth, Reflection, Stages Of Grief, Strength, Writing Agony, Depression, Honesty, Misery, Pain, Personal Reflection, Pieces Of Me, Rebirth, Struggles, Suicide, Writing

WARNING: Potential Triggers I'm a ridiculously intuitive person, which has the tendency of scaring people if they aren't used to it. I live my life paying attention to the same things most people ignore. However, it is virtually impossible to ignore your body and mind when they're screaming at you. No matter what bad thing … Continue reading As Real As It Gets

How Did Your Day Go Yesterday?

2015-08-08 Miss Poison Life, Migraines, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Agony, Chores, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Lost Weekends, Migraines, Self-Care

The best laid plans. 😦 I was in so much pain yesterday that I decided a "quick nap" was in order around 1:00 PM. We will not discuss that I slept way too long. In turn, I didn't get any editing done. I fed cat and kitten because they were both staring at me pathetically, … Continue reading How Did Your Day Go Yesterday?

Pain Levels

2015-08-06 Miss Poison Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Agony, Allergies, Chronic Pain, Fibro Flares, Fibromyalgia, Honesty, Pain, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I'm sitting here, minding my own business, and my pain levels shot from a 4 to a solid 15 in just a few minutes. Has this happened to anyone else out of nowhere? Not being in complete control of your own body is HELL. I cannot see past the blinding pain that starts in my … Continue reading Pain Levels

Falling Apart

2015-07-122015-07-12 Miss Poison Chronic Pain, Honesty, Life, Migraines, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Writing Agony, Chronic Pain, Health, Injury, Lower Lumbar Spine, Migraines, Writing

I apologize for not writing yesterday. I fully intended to do so, I've had a few things partially fleshed out, but by 8:00 a.m., I was not in a position to do anything. I couldn't even bend down! Something in my lower back popped yesterday morning while I was scrolling through messages on my cell … Continue reading Falling Apart