One (A-Deen)

2019-10-25 Miss Poison Honesty, Writing Agony, Authenticity, Depression, Dread, Fall, Fighting, Healing, Honesty, October, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Scorpio Season, Unhappiness, Writing

один (1). "Overwhelmed. Disappointed. Hurt. Sadness. Grieving. Struggling. Stabbed in the back. Empty. Trapped. Darkness. Silence. Isolation, but I'm not lost. Beauty in chaos. Trying to find a way back to myself. Living in truth. Attempting to heal. Gunpowder and lead. Through authenticity; anything is possible. And yet, very few people understand that you can … Continue reading One (A-Deen)

Not Okay

2017-06-302017-07-01 Miss Poison Writing Depression, Honesty, Musings, Physical Pain, Stress, Unhappiness, Writing

I'm not okay. I've tried to be, but ultimately, the first person I have to be honest with is myself. If you start lying to yourself, you can convince the entire world that everything's fine while the house burns down around you. Everything is absolutely NOT fine because I am NOT fine. Today was my … Continue reading Not Okay

A Broken, Pretty Mess

2017-04-23 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Emotional Pain, Emotional Support, Honesty, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Struggling, Unhappiness, Writing

When I came home Wednesday afternoon, after being at the doctor's office for HOURS (You know your doctor is good when EVERYONE wants to see her.), I didn't realize how awful I felt. I remember coming inside, hanging up my coat, taking in the mail, feeding Cat and Kitten a little earlier than usual, changing … Continue reading A Broken, Pretty Mess

Out Of Sorts, And Then Some…

2017-01-14 Miss Poison Depression, Honesty, Life, Migraines, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing Anger, Cat and Kitten, Depression, Difficulties, Honesty, Life, Love, Migraines, Misery, People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Rage, Suffering, Unhappiness, Writing

I'd like to thank the two people who reached out to me with messages of encouragement, respect, and kindness after my last post about how horrible I am feeling (My feelings have only worsened.). Steven & Tasha; your words genuinely helped me and, from the bottom of my heart, they meant the world to me. … Continue reading Out Of Sorts, And Then Some…

The Ledge

2017-01-09 Miss Poison Depression, Feelings, Fibromyalgia, Honesty, January, Life, Mental Health, Mondays, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anger, Depression, Emotions, Fibromyalgia, Frustration, Honesty, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Unhappiness, Writing

I'm on the verge of letting go today. There's no way to pretty it up or sugar-coat the amount of pain I am in, both physically and emotionally. I've had enough. Reached the boiling point. Feel as though I am trapped in a maze of never-ending bullshit, and I cannot take another second of this. … Continue reading The Ledge

Something Inside Me Clicks

Quote 2016-12-292016-12-29 Miss Poison Quotes Depression, Jasmine Warga, Life, Love, Quotes, Unhappiness

“Something inside me clicks. It's like I've spent my whole life fiddling with a complicated combination only to discover I was toying with the wrong lock.” ―Jasmine Warga

Triggers

2016-12-03 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Triggers, Writing Anxiety, December, Depression, Emotional Pain, Honesty, Life, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Triggers, Unhappiness, Writing

December. My new month, chock full of triggers. I woke up Thursday morning and didn't know where I was. From the colors around me, to the sounds; I was completely and utterly disoriented. And then, it came crashing down on me in one fell swoop; it's December 1st. Last year, my life changed drastically on … Continue reading Triggers

Saying Goodbye

2016-10-312016-11-01 Miss Poison Birthdays, Family, Friends, Honesty, Life, Musings, November, October, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Depression, Fibromyalgia, Honesty, Life, Musings, October, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Ruined Days, Unhappiness, Writing

I've never been happier to say goodbye to a month. 😦 The month I most look forward to every year, October, has been bitter, painful, and full of things I do not want to take into the coming month, or any month in the future, for that matter. I feel like a snake, preparing to … Continue reading Saying Goodbye

Insomniac City & Other Feelings

2016-08-05 Miss Poison Insomnia, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing August, Cat and Kitten, Depression, Friday, Gymnastics, Hot Days, Insomnia, Life, Loneliness, Music, Musings, Olympics, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reading, Stress, Summer, Time, Unhappiness, Writing

There is something about summer that causes terrible insomnia for me. It's not just the blistering heat & humidity of the days (and many nights). Even on cooler nights, I find myself completely and utterly unable to sleep. It's awful, especially when I'm yawning at 7:30 PM thinking "I can't wait to be in bed … Continue reading Insomniac City & Other Feelings

For a Torture To Be Effective…

Quote 2016-07-02 Miss Poison Quotes Cruelty, Madness, Misery, Pain, Quotes, Suffering, Torment, Torture, Unhappiness, Yōko Ogawa

“For a torture to be effective, the pain has to be spread out; it has to come at regular intervals, with no end in sight. The water falls , drop after drop after drop, like the second hand of a watch, carving up time. The shock of each individual drop is insignificant, but the sensation … Continue reading For a Torture To Be Effective…