Tuesday Thoughts

2019-06-11 Miss Poison Migraines, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Emotions, Exhaustion, Health, June, Life, Migraines, Musings, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Treatment Methods, Writing

Hello one and all. I hope you're having a great start to the week. My procedure yesterday afternoon went okay. I think I've just gotten used to it, though my anxiety was still pretty awful. Usually there's an epic migraine and so much physical pain after this treatment that I come back, feed my cats, … Continue reading Tuesday Thoughts

Tools of The Trade

2019-06-082019-06-08 Miss Poison Books, Photos, Reading, Writing Anxiety, Books, Cassandra Clare, Emotions, Musings, Next Level Basic, Pens, Queen of Air and Darkness, Reading, Red Scrolls of Magic, Sadness, Stassi Schroeder, Stress, Wesley Chu, Writing

Being without my laptop has been trying these past few weeks. I'm SO READY to be writing and creating, and I hate being stalled. Poor thing is a very expensive paperweight at the moment. 😔 I don't want my creativity to dry up or meltdown. If anything, it's ramped up considerably. Talk about frustrating! I … Continue reading Tools of The Trade

Feeling Like A Hostage Negotiator

2019-05-312019-05-31 Miss Poison Writing Computer Drama, Delays, Health, May, Musings, My Brother, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

What's the holdup? Basically, my laptop will no longer charge and needs to be replaced. It's been too long already without being able to write, and I'm slowly losing my mind. I'm trying to hunt down a temporary replacement. Something used since I can't yet afford the model I need, and the manufacturer doesn't offer … Continue reading Feeling Like A Hostage Negotiator

Personal Public Service Announcement: Mother’s Day

2019-05-112019-05-11 Miss Poison Mother's Day, Writing Adult Orphans, Heartbreak, Honesty, May, Mother's Day, Motherless Daughters, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

Late-March into May is a difficult time for me. It's when my e-mail accounts (personal and professional) slowly become flooded with Mother's Day prompts. Last year, I deleted roughly sixty companies from my regular list because it was obnoxious and triggering. I wish I'd deleted more. This year, I almost certainly will do my best … Continue reading Personal Public Service Announcement: Mother’s Day

Another Caturday In The Books

2019-04-272019-04-27 Miss Poison April, Caturday, Images/Photos/Quotes April, California, Cat and Kitten, Cat Owner, Cats, Caturday, Chabad, Images/Photos/Quotes, Life With Cats, Musings, Original Goddess Kitten, Poway, Synagogue Shooting

From top left: My first official cat. She was part Egyptian Mau/part Tabby. I loved her to pieces. It is almost the eleventh anniversary of her passing. 😦 Top right: Cat humor of the day. Lower left: Cat as a kitten. This photo was her first official full day as part of the family. … Continue reading Another Caturday In The Books

From Scratch

2019-04-032021-04-03 Miss Poison Honesty, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anxiety, Authenticity, Chronic Pain, Depression, Effort, Emotions, Erased, Feelings, Fibromyalgia, Health, Honesty, Learning, Life, Migraines, Musings, Observations, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Thoughts, Truth, Trying, Untreated Pain, Writing

Two days. That's all it took to completely erase me. My entire past and much of the present; things I've held onto tightly because I believed I had something in life worth fighting for. I still had hope. I believed in the responsibility. I believed in keeping specific things, and people, alive, and sacred. Now, … Continue reading From Scratch

Musings Of An Unquiet Mind

2019-02-082019-02-08 Miss Poison Family, Friendship, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Writing Family, February, Friendships, Honesty, Images/Photos/Quotes, Life, Love, Loyalty, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Protective Nature, Relationships, Toxic People, Writing

My closest friends and family, my loved ones, are the absolute BEST reflection of who I am. When you have healthy self-respect, self-esteem, dignity, a seemingly unending source of inner strength, and an innate sense of self, you don't wait for some mythological superhero to rescue you. You're your own damn hero, and I'm SO PROUD of … Continue reading Musings Of An Unquiet Mind

Dosvedanya Yanvar (Goodbye January)

2019-01-312019-01-31 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Honesty, Injury, Musings, Pain Management, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I mostly rank this month with a gigantic middle finger. January did me dirty in more ways than one. I don't really know how, when, or if I'll recover from the deeper damage caused. I saw the spine specialist this week. He gave me three options as a potential diagnosis and then tried to send … Continue reading Dosvedanya Yanvar (Goodbye January)

Eleven Years Ago

2018-12-232018-12-24 Miss Poison December, In Memory, My Father, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing December 23rd, Difficult Times, Emotional Pain, Emotions, Holidays, Honesty, In Memory, Musings, Observations, Poison In Lethal Doses, Thoughts, Writing

I buried my father eleven years ago today. It is the exact day; a cold Sunday that seemed to go on forever. When a funeral home employee pulled me aside that day and asked me to identify the body, I tried holding my brother back, in an attempt to shield him from what I'd just … Continue reading Eleven Years Ago

Tough Times Calls For All Kinds Of Things

2018-08-312018-09-05 Miss Poison August, Being Real, Chronic Illness, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Fibromyalgia Awareness, Writing 50 State Network, Advocacy, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Fibromyalgia Awareness, Musings, Patient Advocate, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Suffering, Truth, Writing

While battling for proper diagnoses, finding the correct treatment method(s) is crucial to your overall well-being. For the better part of this year, I've had different people attempt to over-ride my intuition. I don't like that. It is a surefire way to piss me off. I don’t like being told what to do regarding my … Continue reading Tough Times Calls For All Kinds Of Things