I'm not a good actor, ask anyone who truly knows me. I don't excel at faking things with bullshit, smiles, and pretend laughter in an attempt to project that "Everything's great." When people try that with me, I wonder what they're trying to prove by lying. This morning, I was on that ledge. I'm not … Continue reading Days On The Ledge
Honesty
From Scratch
Two days. That's all it took to completely erase me. My entire past and much of the present; things I've held onto tightly because I believed I had something in life worth fighting for. I still had hope. I believed in the responsibility. I believed in keeping specific things, and people, alive, and sacred. Now, … Continue reading From Scratch
If I Treated You…
Think about how you treat your friends, especially when you refer to them as "family". I treat my friends the way I want to be treated, so if you disrespect me or waste my time, or do ANYTHING to hurt me, a half-assed apology isn't going to cut it. And not apologizing at all is … Continue reading If I Treated You…
Musings Of An Unquiet Mind
My closest friends and family, my loved ones, are the absolute BEST reflection of who I am. When you have healthy self-respect, self-esteem, dignity, a seemingly unending source of inner strength, and an innate sense of self, you don't wait for some mythological superhero to rescue you. You're your own damn hero, and I'm SO PROUD of … Continue reading Musings Of An Unquiet Mind
Real Friends Can’t Be Lost
"Masquerade! Paper faces on parade Masquerade! Hide your face so the world will never find you Masquerade! Every face a different shade Masquerade! Look around, there's another mask behind you Flash of mauve, splash of puce Fool and king, ghoul and goose Green and black, queen and priest Trace of rouge, face of beast, faces … Continue reading Real Friends Can’t Be Lost
Dosvedanya Yanvar (Goodbye January)
I mostly rank this month with a gigantic middle finger. January did me dirty in more ways than one. I don't really know how, when, or if I'll recover from the deeper damage caused. I saw the spine specialist this week. He gave me three options as a potential diagnosis and then tried to send … Continue reading Dosvedanya Yanvar (Goodbye January)
Eleven Years Ago
I buried my father eleven years ago today. It is the exact day; a cold Sunday that seemed to go on forever. When a funeral home employee pulled me aside that day and asked me to identify the body, I tried holding my brother back, in an attempt to shield him from what I'd just … Continue reading Eleven Years Ago
Sixth Anniversary
Today is my sixth anniversary on WordPress. I can't believe how far I've come since sitting down on a particularly benign day, and saying "Why not?" It was a harmless move and thought, and I can say I am BLESSED to have remained friends with several people who first started following me on my original … Continue reading Sixth Anniversary
