For the last eight months or so, I had silently convinced myself that I was abandoning the manuscripts for the series of novels I began writing in 2010. Before you scoff and judge that length of time, note that I wasn't writing "just one thing". I was writing multiple manuscripts (hence, a "series of novels") … Continue reading The Not-So-Lost Manuscripts
Poison In Lethal Doses
Head Meet Sink
I detest going from graceful human-being to absolute klutz. Try explaining cuts, burns, bumps, and bruises to people without looking like a battered woman. It's damn near impossible. A few months ago my right wrist was covered in scratches of varying lengths. To the average passerby, it would have looked like I'd tried to harm … Continue reading Head Meet Sink
Boiling Point
Fact: I am seriously contemplating ending my life. No one knows what's going on, or cares, but I feel it's important to talk about. I walked away from self-harm at least a dozen times last week, maybe more. I have no strong desire to actually carry it out, but we cannot "cure" the thoughts that … Continue reading Boiling Point
Feeling Sour
Maybe its lack of sleep, the weather, circumstances being what they are (I will explain at some point.), etc., but whatever it is, the combination has made me utterly unpleasant and sour. Two feelings that I can never seem to shake entirely. 😦 I forced myself to go to bed early last night, which was … Continue reading Feeling Sour
Invitations
Hello everyone. 😀 I'd like to welcome all the new readers. For those who have been on this journey with me from day one; thank you for sticking with me. This has been an incredibly stressful month for me. A friend of 20 years passed away this week, which saddens me because she was such … Continue reading Invitations
Devoid Of Emotion And All That Jazz
I would apologize for not writing anything of substance over the past few weeks, but I'm not sorry for sparing all of you. I've had little I've wanted to talk about, not just where writing is concerned, but in my daily life as well. When that occurs, I find it is best to retreat inside … Continue reading Devoid Of Emotion And All That Jazz
Shutting Down
I've had roughly six pain-free hours in the past two weeks, so bear with me. I could never say "I hurt." enough. 😦 That's not even the appropriate terminology for what I've been experiencing, and I hate it. Pain isn't always physical. For me, it often is, but sometimes pain is also emotional. I don't … Continue reading Shutting Down
Unplugged
This weekend is going to plunge into Siberian-type temperatures. This morning, when I couldn’t sleep, it jumped from -10 to -12 in a matter of minutes. What’s worse is; you can feel it in your bones and on your skin. It is the kind of pain I would have blown off many moons ago, when … Continue reading Unplugged
A Myriad Of Thoughts
I begin this day by wishing my best friend Marion the happiest of birthdays. Not a lot of people can say they are a true friend of mine, but you can say "This is my best friend of 20 years." There are marriages that don't last nearly as long. We're the lucky ones, and sometimes … Continue reading A Myriad Of Thoughts
