In The Face of Trauma: Fatherless Daughter

2021-12-18 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Mourning, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Complex PTSD, Goal Getter, Goals, Health, Honesty, Interpersonal Relationships, Mourning, My Father, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Siblings, Trauma, Writing

Last month, my doctor asked if anything specific was triggering me. At the time, I couldn't think of anything. Until a specific day came, and I broke down in tears for hours. It had been a long time since I'd allowed myself to do that. 😦 The majority of my breakdowns are quiet. Real quiet. … Continue reading In The Face of Trauma: Fatherless Daughter

The Dark Days

2020-12-18 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Writing In Memoriam, Life, My Father, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I've kept an extremely low profile the past few days. For starters, I am still fighting off an infection. It's draining me terribly. My brain understood I really needed to shovel snow yesterday, but my body sent me back to bed because I couldn't keep my head up or my eyes open. I was battling … Continue reading The Dark Days

The Countdown

2017-05-12 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Writing Adult Orphans, Being Real, Fibromyalgia Pain, Honesty, May, Migraines, Mother's Day, Motherless Daughters, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Suffering, Writing

Every year, usually around mid-April, is the countdown reminder from every company I've ever done business with, or might do business with in the future, that Mother's Day is fast approaching. Last year, it angered me to the point where I unsubscribed from about 20-30 different mailing lists. I just couldn't take it any more. … Continue reading The Countdown

May You Never Be Broken Again

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCR3eWYt7tw In memoria di mio padre. This is the first year I've been able to hear this without crying.

Some People

2016-07-152016-07-15 Miss Poison Abuse, Adult Orphans, Honesty, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Abuse, Falseness, Family, Family Dynamics, Honesty, Musings, Negativity, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Speaking The Truth, Writing

A year ago, I probably would not have believed that my life would be what it is in this moment. It was unfathomable, and it is incredibly difficult for me transitioning into this "new life". Recently someone made the grave mistake of telling me that I "choose not to be happy". Forgive me, but that's … Continue reading Some People

Boiling Point

2016-05-23 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Anger, Depression, Honesty, Life, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anger, Courage, Depression, Emotional Pain, Honesty, Life, Negativity, Observations, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Strength, Suffering, Writing

Fact: I am seriously contemplating ending my life. No one knows what's going on, or cares, but I feel it's important to talk about. I walked away from self-harm at least a dozen times last week, maybe more. I have no strong desire to actually carry it out, but we cannot "cure" the thoughts that … Continue reading Boiling Point

Mother & Daughter

2015-05-17 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, In Memory, Motherless Daughters, My Mother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Strength, Writing Best Friends, Friendship, Honesty, In Memory, My Mother, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Writing

First friend; best friend. The reason I am who I am. The person who encouraged me never to follow, but always to lead. Guide-post. Lighthouse. Anchor. Part angel, part saint. The best listener. Could always see the best in me, even when I didn't believe there was any. Teacher of so much. Giver of books, … Continue reading Mother & Daughter

Exhausted To The Bone

2015-05-08 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Exhaustion, Honesty, Mother's Day, Motherless Daughters, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Adult Orphans, Exhaustion, Limitations, Motherless Daughters, Musings, Not Today, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reading, Rest, Sleep, Writing

I went to bed exhausted, I woke up more exhausted than when I originally went to bed. Lately, there never seems to be enough sleep. I found myself wanting to nod off for four hours yesterday, but when I finally committed myself to "a nap", I ended up reading for over three hours. I hadn't … Continue reading Exhausted To The Bone