Preparing To Sit Shiva

2022-06-182022-06-20 Miss Poison Loss, Mourning Death In The Family, Fundraiser, Loss, Mourning

Update on 6/20: Link was removed around the $4650 mark by the person who started it (A cousin who I am not related to, as I am family from the other side.). I will add in any additional fundraising endeavors, as I know some help *might* be needed. I am waiting to hear back, but … Continue reading Preparing To Sit Shiva

In The Face of Trauma: Fatherless Daughter

2021-12-18 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Mourning, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Complex PTSD, Goal Getter, Goals, Health, Honesty, Interpersonal Relationships, Mourning, My Father, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Siblings, Trauma, Writing

Last month, my doctor asked if anything specific was triggering me. At the time, I couldn't think of anything. Until a specific day came, and I broke down in tears for hours. It had been a long time since I'd allowed myself to do that. 😦 The majority of my breakdowns are quiet. Real quiet. … Continue reading In The Face of Trauma: Fatherless Daughter

Bear With Me

2021-12-17 Miss Poison Mourning, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Mourning, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

Hi, everyone! I'm having a rough time, and all this while I am working on so much for this site. 😦 I've already ruled out that I'm not having a heart attack, but man, everything feels so much worse right now. Let me be clear; death anniversaries are hard for me. They involve flashbacks and … Continue reading Bear With Me

Always A Funeral…

2021-08-24 Miss Poison Funerals, Mourning, Writing Being Present, Catholicism, Faith, Funerals, Honesty, Judaism, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Respect, Spirituality, Writing

If I tallied up all the funerals I have been to, it would be a percentage of over 99%. How many weddings have I been to? Three. Please don't invite me to anything you don't truly want me to attend. Let me clarify that my own family has chosen to exclude me from every wedding, … Continue reading Always A Funeral…

I Know For Certain…

2021-05-202021-05-21 Miss Poison Emotional Pain, Loss, Mourning, Quotes Death, Emotional Pain, Leo Buscaglia, Loss, Love, Memories, My Uncle, Quotes

“I know for certain that we never lose the people we love, even to death. They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make. Their love leaves an indelible imprint in our memories.” —Leo Buscaglia It seems like yesterday. I blinked and the day was here. It has heartbreakingly been ten years … Continue reading I Know For Certain…

Tracking The Time

2021-02-24 Miss Poison Mourning, Writing Emotional Pain, February, Loss, Love, Mourning, My Mother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing

The loss of my mother haunts me. How could it not? I know not everyone has a deep bond with either parent, and others have different scenarios of their family dynamic, which I understand, but my mother was my best friend. I was never embarrassed of her or ashamed of her. I took care of … Continue reading Tracking The Time

Facing The Pain: Part I

2020-05-012020-05-01 Miss Poison May, Mourning, Writing Facing The Pain, Family, Loss, May, Mourning, Suffering

This was a full blown post and the written content didn't publish. I will try to recreate it later on.

Dirge Without Music

Quote 2020-02-242020-02-24 Miss Poison Mourning, Quotes Death, Edna St. Vincent Millay, Grief, Loss, Mourning, My Mother, Poetry, Quotes, Remembering

“I am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground. So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind: Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely. Crowned With lilies and with laurel they go; but I am not resigned. … Continue reading Dirge Without Music