Part of falling apart means picking up the pieces, even if "the pieces" are, in essence, yourself. It's not an easy step. In fact, it is being made far worse for me by external forces; all fighting to control me because something is lacking in their lives. When you are forced to rebuild your life, … Continue reading Chained
Poison In Lethal Doses
Insomniac City & Other Feelings
There is something about summer that causes terrible insomnia for me. It's not just the blistering heat & humidity of the days (and many nights). Even on cooler nights, I find myself completely and utterly unable to sleep. It's awful, especially when I'm yawning at 7:30 PM thinking "I can't wait to be in bed … Continue reading Insomniac City & Other Feelings
Bad Days, Sweet Cats
As I will explain in a future post, I've been having some incredibly bad days (it's been many, many months, actually. I am not pointing any fingers in saying that, life is simply unpredictable as hell.). Some of it is health-related, but the rest is not worth repeating twice, so I'll save it for the … Continue reading Bad Days, Sweet Cats
Some People
A year ago, I probably would not have believed that my life would be what it is in this moment. It was unfathomable, and it is incredibly difficult for me transitioning into this "new life". Recently someone made the grave mistake of telling me that I "choose not to be happy". Forgive me, but that's … Continue reading Some People
Your Obstacles
I'm going through something awful at the moment; I'd never wish this on another human-being because it is horrible and torturous. There's no one reliable for me to turn to for help. The person I thought I could depend on has progressively become unreliable, as they so often say one thing and do another, and … Continue reading Your Obstacles
Mid-Season
Happy Canada Day to all my Canadian readers! For me, today is the beginning of a four day weekend culminating in the 4th of July on Monday. Quite frankly, I'm appalled I've survived the first half of this year to be faced with fireworks and the worst of summer: July and August. Have I ever … Continue reading Mid-Season
Kinder To Myself
I hope everyone is having a wonderful week and that you're all taking brief moments for yourself in order to re-group and center yourselves before the upcoming weekend. This past weekend was relatively full, but I didn't get any time to zone out and do things I truly enjoy. I feel as though I have … Continue reading Kinder To Myself
Off
I feel immensely "off" this week, and it's only Tuesday. 😦 When I'm asleep by 8:30 on any given night, there's generally a reason. Last night, it was a combination of exhaustion, pushing myself all day to remain awake on little-to-no sleep, being in pain, and it's possible the heat had something to do with … Continue reading Off
