Every Witch Way, But Mostly Dead

2018-04-082018-04-08 Miss Poison Chronic Illness, Chronic Pain, Complex PTSD, Depression, Emotional Pain, Enough, Escape, Exhaustion, Fibromyalgia, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Writing April, Complex PTSD, Depression, Emotional Pain, Empty, Fibromyalgia, Observations, Physical Pain, Stress, Survival, Triggers, Writing, Zero Emotional Support

Authors' Note: **POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING** Yes, the title is spelled correctly. Yes, it's intentional. Most of my weekends are spent doing things I'd rather not do. The weekends were once my refuge for sleep, quiet, peace, laughter, productivity, cooking, more laughter, and space. They are now filled with rushed moments, trying to pack a lot … Continue reading Every Witch Way, But Mostly Dead

Fighting Your Internal Dialogue

2018-01-162018-01-17 Miss Poison Chronic Pain, Disrespect, Writing Anger, Bad Doctors, Chronic Pain, Doctors, Experiences, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Right and Wrong, Truth, Writing

Hello everyone! I hope you're all doing well. I'm not going to lie; today was a rough one. 😦 I made an appointment sometime last month to meet with a spine specialist (read: anesthesiologist). My new doctor had asked me to meet with the in-house substance abuse doctor as well, so she could prescribe the … Continue reading Fighting Your Internal Dialogue

You Only Get One Chance

2017-08-042017-08-12 Miss Poison Unbelievable Crap, Writing Doctors, Drama, Health, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I showed up for my doctor's appointment today and the office staff, who I can only describe as idiotically incompetent, something I don't normally say about this particular office, waited about ten minutes before informing me that my insurance had been terminated. To say I was outraged is a vast understatement. When they ask you … Continue reading You Only Get One Chance

In The Middle Of The Journey

Quote 2017-08-01 Miss Poison Quotes Dante Alighieri, Observations, Quotes

“In the middle of the journey of our life I found myself within a dark woods where the straight way was lost.” ―Dante Alighieri

The Summer Of ‘What The Fuck?’

2017-07-21 Miss Poison Writing Honesty, July, Mourning, Musings, Observations, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing

I promised myself certain aspects of this year would be better, and they have been, but the rest of the year, thus far, has been a shit-show of epic proportions. I am so thrown by it all, I probably say "What the fuck?!" fifty times a day, if not more. I've talked about it, so … Continue reading The Summer Of ‘What The Fuck?’

I Don’t Have Time For This

2017-06-092017-06-28 Miss Poison Writing Feelings, Honesty, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Time, Writing

"I am a migraine, that occasionally gets to be a human-being." 😦 In preparation to meet with my new neurologist next month, I forwarded a copy of my current migraine report to myself so I can print it and bring it with me. In one month, which was recent, I counted thirty migraine days. That's … Continue reading I Don’t Have Time For This

Letting It Pass

2017-04-10 Miss Poison Writing Acceptance, Belonging, Feelings, Focus, Health, Honesty, Judaism, Life, Musings, Observations, Passover, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Thoughts, Writing

People make an awful lot of assumptions when you keep the majority of your thoughts private. They desperately try to read your body language and facial expressions, but they don’t know what any of them mean, so again, they make assumptions. I’m not the kind of person anyone should be making assumptions about. I have … Continue reading Letting It Pass

American Values & Respect

2017-01-302017-02-14 Miss Poison Writing "President Trump", America, Football, Musings, New England Patriots, NFL, Observations, Poison In Lethal Doses, Respect, Super Bowl LI, Values, Writing

On the 26th of January, newly inaugurated “President Trump” (Which will remain in quotes because I cannot say it with a straight face.), gave a speech from Philadelphia. Living a handful of miles outside of Boston proper, this was “Breaking News”. I’m sure it was “Breaking News” all across this country, really. I listened, but … Continue reading American Values & Respect

Head Meet Sink

2016-05-27 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Pain, People, Poison In Lethal Doses, Uncategorized, Writing Emotional Support, Friendship, Health, Honesty, Life, Loyalty, Mental Health, Migraines, Mood Disorders, Musings, Observations, Pain, Personality Disorders, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I detest going from graceful human-being to absolute klutz. Try explaining cuts, burns, bumps, and bruises to people without looking like a battered woman. It's damn near impossible. A few months ago my right wrist was covered in scratches of varying lengths. To the average passerby, it would have looked like I'd tried to harm … Continue reading Head Meet Sink

Boiling Point

2016-05-23 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Anger, Depression, Honesty, Life, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anger, Courage, Depression, Emotional Pain, Honesty, Life, Negativity, Observations, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Strength, Suffering, Writing

Fact: I am seriously contemplating ending my life. No one knows what's going on, or cares, but I feel it's important to talk about. I walked away from self-harm at least a dozen times last week, maybe more. I have no strong desire to actually carry it out, but we cannot "cure" the thoughts that … Continue reading Boiling Point