Chained

2016-08-14 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Negativity, Pieces Of Me, Questions, Writing Anger, Chained, Fibromyalgia, Honesty, Life, Migraines, Musings, Pain, People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Struggles, Writing

Part of falling apart means picking up the pieces, even if "the pieces" are, in essence, yourself. It's not an easy step. In fact, it is being made far worse for me by external forces; all fighting to control me because something is lacking in their lives. When you are forced to rebuild your life, … Continue reading Chained

Insomniac City & Other Feelings

2016-08-05 Miss Poison Insomnia, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing August, Cat and Kitten, Depression, Friday, Gymnastics, Hot Days, Insomnia, Life, Loneliness, Music, Musings, Olympics, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reading, Stress, Summer, Time, Unhappiness, Writing

There is something about summer that causes terrible insomnia for me. It's not just the blistering heat & humidity of the days (and many nights). Even on cooler nights, I find myself completely and utterly unable to sleep. It's awful, especially when I'm yawning at 7:30 PM thinking "I can't wait to be in bed … Continue reading Insomniac City & Other Feelings

Bad Days, Sweet Cats

2016-07-212016-07-23 Miss Poison Emotional Abuse, Emotional Pain, Fibromyalgia, July, Life, Migraines, Musings, Neuropathy, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Allergies, Anger, Cat and Kitten, Emotional Abuse, Fibromyalgia, Humans, July, Life, Migraines, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, The Human Condition, Thought Process, Thoughts, Writers, Writing

As I will explain in a future post, I've been having some incredibly bad days (it's been many, many months, actually. I am not pointing any fingers in saying that, life is simply unpredictable as hell.). Some of it is health-related, but the rest is not worth repeating twice, so I'll save it for the … Continue reading Bad Days, Sweet Cats

Kinder To Myself

2016-06-16 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Health, Honesty, June, Life, Migraines, Musings, Poison In Lethal Doses, Summer, Temperature Sensitivity, Writing

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week and that you're all taking brief moments for yourself in order to re-group and center yourselves before the upcoming weekend. This past weekend was relatively full, but I didn't get any time to zone out and do things I truly enjoy. I feel as though I have … Continue reading Kinder To Myself

Off

2016-06-072016-06-07 Miss Poison Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Broken Bones, June, Musings, Physical Pain, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stupidity, Writing

I feel immensely "off" this week, and it's only Tuesday. 😦 When I'm asleep by 8:30 on any given night, there's generally a reason. Last night, it was a combination of exhaustion, pushing myself all day to remain awake on little-to-no sleep, being in pain, and it's possible the heat had something to do with … Continue reading Off

The Not-So-Lost Manuscripts

2016-06-04 Miss Poison Inspiration, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Books, Creativity, Inspiration, Manuscripts, Passion, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

For the last eight months or so, I had silently convinced myself that I was abandoning the manuscripts for the series of novels I began writing in 2010. Before you scoff and judge that length of time, note that I wasn't writing "just one thing". I was writing multiple manuscripts (hence, a "series of novels") … Continue reading The Not-So-Lost Manuscripts

Head Meet Sink

2016-05-27 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Pain, People, Poison In Lethal Doses, Uncategorized, Writing Emotional Support, Friendship, Health, Honesty, Life, Loyalty, Mental Health, Migraines, Mood Disorders, Musings, Observations, Pain, Personality Disorders, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I detest going from graceful human-being to absolute klutz. Try explaining cuts, burns, bumps, and bruises to people without looking like a battered woman. It's damn near impossible. A few months ago my right wrist was covered in scratches of varying lengths. To the average passerby, it would have looked like I'd tried to harm … Continue reading Head Meet Sink

Boiling Point

2016-05-23 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Anger, Depression, Honesty, Life, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anger, Courage, Depression, Emotional Pain, Honesty, Life, Negativity, Observations, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Strength, Suffering, Writing

Fact: I am seriously contemplating ending my life. No one knows what's going on, or cares, but I feel it's important to talk about. I walked away from self-harm at least a dozen times last week, maybe more. I have no strong desire to actually carry it out, but we cannot "cure" the thoughts that … Continue reading Boiling Point

Feeling Sour

2016-05-142016-05-16 Miss Poison Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Bad Moods, Beach Days, Chronic Pain, Depression, Feelings, Fibromyalgia, Libraries, Life, Loneliness, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing

Maybe its lack of sleep, the weather, circumstances being what they are (I will explain at some point.), etc., but whatever it is, the combination has made me utterly unpleasant and sour. Two feelings that I can never seem to shake entirely. 😦 I forced myself to go to bed early last night, which was … Continue reading Feeling Sour

Invitations

2016-04-222016-07-21 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Cat and Kitten, Family, Friends, Full Moon, Life, Loss, Love, Musings, OGK, Passover, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

Hello everyone. 😀 I'd like to welcome all the new readers. For those who have been on this journey with me from day one; thank you for sticking with me. This has been an incredibly stressful month for me. A friend of 20 years passed away this week, which saddens me because she was such … Continue reading Invitations