Ungrateful Caturday

2021-01-16 Miss Poison Caturday Cat and Kitten, Cats, Caturday, January, Life With Cats, Musings

My cats have decided I'm merely a person who feeds them and rewards them for existing with expensive treats, which they think they should receive every few hours, so long as I'm working and they can annoy me. And they've taken to jumping on my head and screeching if they aren't fed by 8:00 a.m. … Continue reading Ungrateful Caturday

Writing, Reading, and Trying To Stay Focused

2021-01-12 Miss Poison Writing Books, Creativity, Focus, January, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reading, Work, Writing

It was a bizarre first week of January, to say the least. I'm going to try not to talk about what happened at the Capitol Building because my brain is still trying to process the remnants of the act. I didn't know how much it would trigger my PTSD. Especially as someone I am familiar … Continue reading Writing, Reading, and Trying To Stay Focused

This Is Important

Image 2021-01-082021-01-09 Miss Poison Humanity, Images/Photos/Quotes Facts, Humanity, Images/Photos/Quotes, Musings

People, too often, consider America the promised land. The ultimate goal. I've noticed, over the past ten years, people who've always believed this moving to Canada or the United Kingdom, instead. I can't say I blame them. There's a lot of fucked up shit that happens here. Far more than most insulated citizens are aware … Continue reading This Is Important

Numb Dismay

2021-01-07 Miss Poison Writing America, Anger, Dismay, Musings, Numb, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Political Turmoil, Sadness, Writing

It's hard not to be angry and numb today as an #American. I've seen a lot of ugly, racist comments made, all under the guise of, "If those people had been…" Just stop. I don't want to see ANYONE shot, choked, tear-gassed, or harmed because of one psychotic person who bought an election in this … Continue reading Numb Dismay

Pre-Thanksgiving Jitters

2020-11-252020-11-26 Miss Poison Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Americans, Culture, Feelings, Honesty, Musings, Native Americans, November, Perspective, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Thanksgiving, Writing

Hello, everyone. It's been a minute, and the reality is, I've been sick for over a month. 😦 I haven't had any real energy, and I've struggled with not getting enough sleep and then getting too much sleep, if too much sleep is actually a real thing. <Sigh> According to my body, it isn't. Fighting … Continue reading Pre-Thanksgiving Jitters

Current Mood > Assumptions

2020-10-132020-10-14 Miss Poison Honesty, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anxiety, Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Depression, Honesty, Mental Health, Mental Health Awareness, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Truth, Warrior On, Writing

I keep asking myself when a day won't feel, "rough", "tough", "heartbreaking", "emotionally taxing", "lonely", or "deeply upsetting". The fact of the matter is, as someone who rarely cries, I've been an emotional tornado. I've cried so much over the past few days, and that only angers me. In the past week I've nearly hyperventilated … Continue reading Current Mood > Assumptions

October

2020-10-012020-10-05 Miss Poison Writing Anxiety, Chronic Migraines, Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Depression, Honesty, Medication, Musings, October, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sleep, Stress, Suicidal Ideation, Trauma, Triggers, Writing

This is my favorite season and favorite time of year, but after an emotional, rage-filled moment yesterday, I am questioning EVERYTHING in my life. To be fair to myself, I reacted via a triggering comment made to me, and new medication that, without my knowing in advance, causes people to occasionally react in a volatile … Continue reading October

Not Quite

2020-08-162020-08-18 Miss Poison Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing August, Honesty, Musings, Pain Management, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Suffering, Writing

I'm still not doing too great post-treatment. I'm either sleeping too little or too much, and the amount of pain I am in may last another 7-10 days. The plus side of this is that I was approved to start taking Nurtec. I'll figure this out as I go, but thus far, I haven't heard … Continue reading Not Quite

Ignoring The Crossroads

2020-07-21 Miss Poison Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Facts, Growth, Honesty, Learning, Life, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Truth, Writing

When I decided to take "Poison In Lethal Doses" from a printed, exclusive, personally publicized format to an online, public, still personally publicized, but zero profit format, I opened it up in a way I wasn't quite expecting. I won't lie; having experience helped. Having confidence helped even more. In no way was I "just … Continue reading Ignoring The Crossroads

Essential Appointments

2020-05-132020-05-16 Miss Poison Writing Chronic Migraines, Doctors, Healing, Health, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

Today, I went to an essential appointment with my headache specialist. Not surprisingly, she acted like nothing ever happened via phone between us. This month is my two year mark as one of her patients, and aside from a few appointments where she actually knew my name, and my medical reasons for seeing her, this … Continue reading Essential Appointments