I Don’t Have Time For This

2017-06-092017-06-28 Miss Poison Writing Feelings, Honesty, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Time, Writing

"I am a migraine, that occasionally gets to be a human-being." 😦 In preparation to meet with my new neurologist next month, I forwarded a copy of my current migraine report to myself so I can print it and bring it with me. In one month, which was recent, I counted thirty migraine days. That's … Continue reading I Don’t Have Time For This

Pull The Trigger

2017-05-29 Miss Poison Writing Blackouts, Depression, Health, Honesty, Migraines, People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Triggers, Writing

Almost two weeks ago, after an appointment with the Certified Nurse Practitioner at my doctor's office, I went into the afternoon with one thought in mind: What are my triggers? It began to nag at me, until a few things dawned on me. I keep a food journal to track what I'm eating each day. … Continue reading Pull The Trigger

It’s Possible To Feel Worse

2017-05-06 Miss Poison Writing Agony, Fibromyalgia, Health, Migraines, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

Just when I thought it wasn't possible to feel any worse than I have these last few weeks, I woke up this morning and the pain is at an all-time new high for INSANITY. You know those pain scales every doctor's office has posted with idiotic faces? There is no logical way to say "Oh, … Continue reading It’s Possible To Feel Worse

Scheduling Conflicts

2017-04-262017-04-26 Miss Poison Writing Appointments, Bad Days, Doctors, Honesty, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

When you suffer from any form of chronic illness, you can choose, or not choose, to see your life as a bunch of doctor's appointments. I try not to, but lately... Without insurance, I didn't have to think about it. I only went when I had no other choice, and there are doctors I'm still … Continue reading Scheduling Conflicts

A Broken, Pretty Mess

2017-04-23 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Emotional Pain, Emotional Support, Honesty, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Struggling, Unhappiness, Writing

When I came home Wednesday afternoon, after being at the doctor's office for HOURS (You know your doctor is good when EVERYONE wants to see her.), I didn't realize how awful I felt. I remember coming inside, hanging up my coat, taking in the mail, feeding Cat and Kitten a little earlier than usual, changing … Continue reading A Broken, Pretty Mess

Cat And Kitten Send Mommy To The Doctor

2017-04-19 Miss Poison Writing Anxiety, Cat and Kitten, Doctors Appointments, Exhaustion, Health, Migraines, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

I know what you're thinking. "This is the first time they've thought of it in all the years they've owned you?!" In all seriousness, I made the appointment myself, long before my Urgent Care fiasco of last Tuesday. However, at 5:00 a.m., I really don't need Large Paws (Kitten) walking all over me from head … Continue reading Cat And Kitten Send Mommy To The Doctor

You Never Plan For This

2017-04-13 Miss Poison Writing Being Sick, Honesty, Musings, My Brother, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Stress, Writing

There's nothing more unpretty than me when I'm sick. I don't just mean looks-wise, I mean in the miserable troll sense. I'm a terrifying, sleeping dragon on a good day, but when I'm sick I'm the three-headed dog from Harry Potter & The Sorcerer's Stone. I take a lot of precautions to avoid getting sick. … Continue reading You Never Plan For This

Friday Night Rewrites

2017-03-31 Miss Poison Writing Exhaustion, Friday, Honesty, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Rewrites, Stress, Writing

I started rewrites on this novel late last night/very early this morning. I'm fifty pages in and I've never felt more like crying for a protagonist in my life. For the record; she's never made me feel like this before, so I feel protective and unsure. I thought a new introduction to the story would … Continue reading Friday Night Rewrites

Square One

2017-03-30 Miss Poison Writing Drafts, Frustration, Honesty, Manuscripts, Musings, Poison In Lethal Doses, Rewrites, Stress, Telling Your Story, Writing

Square One What happens when you’ve written multiple drafts of the same novel, in a month, and you find yourself liking both versions that are relatively complete? I suspect this doesn’t happen to a lot of people, but it has happened to me. After staring at each of them on and off for a full … Continue reading Square One

Sick Writer

2017-03-17 Miss Poison Migraines, Poison In Lethal Doses, Thoughts, Writing Anxiety, Honesty, Migraines, Musings, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

I find myself unable to concentrate this afternoon as I work on what I can only hope is my second to last draft. Everything is coming together nicely, but my health is taking an unhappy turn. It only took six and a half months, two applications (the first of which they lost and didn't tell … Continue reading Sick Writer