The Month Of Triggers

2017-05-01 Miss Poison Writing Depression, Emotional Pain, Grief, Honesty, Loss, May, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Triggers, Writing

Fourteen years ago today, a female relative of mine (an Aunt by marriage) was murdered by her live-in boyfriend. I just read her autopsy and toxicology report for the first time; her death having been ruled an "accident". I read it in utter disbelief. The damage incurred was no accident. I look at it as … Continue reading The Month Of Triggers

The Never-Ending Excitement

2017-04-29 Miss Poison Writing Honesty, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writers, Writing

I swear, I'm radiating unhappiness. Thursdays' appointment made me feel like a fucking fraud. Despite the fact that I KNOW I suffer greatly, you cannot see anything I suffer from. It's like being slapped in the face a bit. People can't help but stare at you, because they're questioning your validity of illness without knowing … Continue reading The Never-Ending Excitement

Scheduling Conflicts

2017-04-262017-04-26 Miss Poison Writing Appointments, Bad Days, Doctors, Honesty, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

When you suffer from any form of chronic illness, you can choose, or not choose, to see your life as a bunch of doctor's appointments. I try not to, but lately... Without insurance, I didn't have to think about it. I only went when I had no other choice, and there are doctors I'm still … Continue reading Scheduling Conflicts

A Broken, Pretty Mess

2017-04-23 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Emotional Pain, Emotional Support, Honesty, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Struggling, Unhappiness, Writing

When I came home Wednesday afternoon, after being at the doctor's office for HOURS (You know your doctor is good when EVERYONE wants to see her.), I didn't realize how awful I felt. I remember coming inside, hanging up my coat, taking in the mail, feeding Cat and Kitten a little earlier than usual, changing … Continue reading A Broken, Pretty Mess

Cat And Kitten Send Mommy To The Doctor

2017-04-19 Miss Poison Writing Anxiety, Cat and Kitten, Doctors Appointments, Exhaustion, Health, Migraines, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

I know what you're thinking. "This is the first time they've thought of it in all the years they've owned you?!" In all seriousness, I made the appointment myself, long before my Urgent Care fiasco of last Tuesday. However, at 5:00 a.m., I really don't need Large Paws (Kitten) walking all over me from head … Continue reading Cat And Kitten Send Mommy To The Doctor

Nothing But The Blues

2017-04-17 Miss Poison Writing Colors, Monday, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

People say you can tell a lot about someone based on their favorite color(s). I disagree. Many moons ago, my favorite colors were red and black. I openly admit this was heavily influenced by someone else. Now the only time you see me wear red is on race day OR if I'm crazy pissed off. … Continue reading Nothing But The Blues

Editing & Earl Grey

2017-04-142017-04-14 Miss Poison Writing April, Characters, Editing, Flow, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Storytelling, Writing

Good writers know when their story is finished. We don't question it; we just instinctively know "This is where to stop." and often times, we're satisfied with that. What do you do when your story is still being told and you're magnetically pulled to keep on writing? I'm ass deep in alligators on this rewrite. … Continue reading Editing & Earl Grey

You Never Plan For This

2017-04-13 Miss Poison Writing Being Sick, Honesty, Musings, My Brother, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Stress, Writing

There's nothing more unpretty than me when I'm sick. I don't just mean looks-wise, I mean in the miserable troll sense. I'm a terrifying, sleeping dragon on a good day, but when I'm sick I'm the three-headed dog from Harry Potter & The Sorcerer's Stone. I take a lot of precautions to avoid getting sick. … Continue reading You Never Plan For This

Full Pink Moon In Libra

2017-04-112017-04-12 Miss Poison April, Full Moon, Full Pink Moon, Full Pink Moon In Libra, Wicca, Writing April, Full Moon, Full Pink Moon In Libra, Libra, Pink Moon, Spring, Wicca, Writing

Tonight is the Full Pink Moon. The Moon won't actually be the color pink, the name comes from the herb, moss pink, or wild ground phlox which are bright pink in color, it is one of the earliest widespread flowers of the spring. Other names for this month’s Moon are Seed, Wind, Sprouting Grass, Egg, … Continue reading Full Pink Moon In Libra

Genuinely Touched

2017-04-112017-04-12 Miss Poison Self-Care, Writing Compassion, Kindness, Sick, Thoughtfulness, Writing

Waking up this morning was rough. I'm functioning on about four hours of sleep, and today was one of those days where I truly had to force myself to go to Urgent Care. You know you feel awful when you actually want to go. I've been sick for weeks now, maybe even a month. I … Continue reading Genuinely Touched