Full Corn Moon In Aquarius

2017-08-07 Miss Poison Aquarius, August, Full Corn Moon, Writing Aquarius, August, Full Corn Moon In Aquarius, Full Moon, Wicca, Writing

Tonight is the Full Corn Moon, named because this is a time of the corn harvests. The August Full Moon is also known as the Sturgeon Moon because this was the time when wild sturgeon and salmon would be abundant in rivers and streams. At this time, our emotions will be heightened, our senses will … Continue reading Full Corn Moon In Aquarius

You Only Get One Chance

2017-08-042017-08-12 Miss Poison Unbelievable Crap, Writing Doctors, Drama, Health, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I showed up for my doctor's appointment today and the office staff, who I can only describe as idiotically incompetent, something I don't normally say about this particular office, waited about ten minutes before informing me that my insurance had been terminated. To say I was outraged is a vast understatement. When they ask you … Continue reading You Only Get One Chance

Stressful Sleepless Nights

2017-07-31 Miss Poison Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Fierce, Fighting, Insomnia, Musings, Pain, Passion, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Strength, Stress, Thought, Writing

I have long since passed "tired" and have reached a state of pure "painsomnia". No matter what I do, I am in too much pain to sleep properly, if at all. Physically, mentally, and emotionally, I'm not in the correct head-space to allow my body to rest as it needs to. It's twisted when anyone … Continue reading Stressful Sleepless Nights

The Summer Of ‘What The Fuck?’

2017-07-21 Miss Poison Writing Honesty, July, Mourning, Musings, Observations, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing

I promised myself certain aspects of this year would be better, and they have been, but the rest of the year, thus far, has been a shit-show of epic proportions. I am so thrown by it all, I probably say "What the fuck?!" fifty times a day, if not more. I've talked about it, so … Continue reading The Summer Of ‘What The Fuck?’

Writing With Purpose

2017-07-182017-07-20 Miss Poison Boundaries, Writing Authenticity, Being Real, Boundaries, Honesty, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Privacy, Purpose, Writing

I've had a couple of rough weeks, though in truth, I'd have to say "rough decade", but I'd prefer to focus on the present. Some of it I would prefer to address in a future piece that is nearly completed, but the rest I'd like to get out of my system. Unfortunately, I don't even … Continue reading Writing With Purpose

Trying To Cope

2017-07-06 Miss Poison Writing Emotional Pain, Emotional Support, Family, Friends, Honesty, Hurting, Loved Ones, Pain, People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Suffering, Upset, Writing

Have you ever wondered if you're trying too hard? If you have to question yourself, then you probably are. But what if you're being told that you aren't trying hard enough? It's incredibly confusing, and downright counterintuitive, to have someone tell you you're not trying hard enough when they don't actually see how hard you … Continue reading Trying To Cope

Incurable

2017-07-042017-07-04 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Emotional Support, Family, Friends, Honesty, Incurable Illness, Life, Musings, Pain, Patients, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reality, Suicide, Truth, Twitter, Writing

***Potential Trigger Warning*** Friday night, I stupidly read my new diagnosis for the first time. And then I sat here in tears. The old diagnosis, which I've had for a long time, is … Continue reading Incurable

Not Okay

2017-06-302017-07-01 Miss Poison Writing Depression, Honesty, Musings, Physical Pain, Stress, Unhappiness, Writing

I'm not okay. I've tried to be, but ultimately, the first person I have to be honest with is myself. If you start lying to yourself, you can convince the entire world that everything's fine while the house burns down around you. Everything is absolutely NOT fine because I am NOT fine. Today was my … Continue reading Not Okay

Doctor & Patient: The Follow-Up

2017-06-212017-06-30 Miss Poison Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Doctors, Health, Honesty, Mental Health, Patients, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

**Potential trigger warning** “Exigo a me non ut optimis par sim, sed ut malis melior - I require myself not to be equal to the best, but to be better than the bad.” I think my doctor is a compatible astrological sign and/or is perhaps magically able to defuse angry women. I realize sometimes it’s … Continue reading Doctor & Patient: The Follow-Up

I Don’t Have Time For This

2017-06-092017-06-28 Miss Poison Writing Feelings, Honesty, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Time, Writing

"I am a migraine, that occasionally gets to be a human-being." 😦 In preparation to meet with my new neurologist next month, I forwarded a copy of my current migraine report to myself so I can print it and bring it with me. In one month, which was recent, I counted thirty migraine days. That's … Continue reading I Don’t Have Time For This