Fact: I am seriously contemplating ending my life. No one knows what's going on, or cares, but I feel it's important to talk about. I walked away from self-harm at least a dozen times last week, maybe more. I have no strong desire to actually carry it out, but we cannot "cure" the thoughts that … Continue reading Boiling Point
Honesty
Deeply Emotional Goodbyes
I apologize to all of you for not writing this weekend. I fully intended to complete a post yesterday, but I had to prioritize a horrible Fibro flare and today, despite one of the worst migraines in my life, I forced myself out the door with sunglasses practically glued to my face, on a 30+ … Continue reading Deeply Emotional Goodbyes
Invitations
Hello everyone. 😀 I'd like to welcome all the new readers. For those who have been on this journey with me from day one; thank you for sticking with me. This has been an incredibly stressful month for me. A friend of 20 years passed away this week, which saddens me because she was such … Continue reading Invitations
It Seems Like Such An Amazing Predicament…
"It seems like such an amazing predicament to me, how one does not become a better person by seeking out in the world those who are lesser than himself and then saying, 'I will be better than you because you're not as good as me.' You don't become better by looking at others and trying … Continue reading It Seems Like Such An Amazing Predicament…
Shutting Down
I've had roughly six pain-free hours in the past two weeks, so bear with me. I could never say "I hurt." enough. 😦 That's not even the appropriate terminology for what I've been experiencing, and I hate it. Pain isn't always physical. For me, it often is, but sometimes pain is also emotional. I don't … Continue reading Shutting Down
Unplugged
This weekend is going to plunge into Siberian-type temperatures. This morning, when I couldn’t sleep, it jumped from -10 to -12 in a matter of minutes. What’s worse is; you can feel it in your bones and on your skin. It is the kind of pain I would have blown off many moons ago, when … Continue reading Unplugged
