In The Face of Trauma: Fatherless Daughter

2021-12-18 Miss Poison Adult Orphans, Mourning, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Complex PTSD, Goal Getter, Goals, Health, Honesty, Interpersonal Relationships, Mourning, My Father, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Siblings, Trauma, Writing

Last month, my doctor asked if anything specific was triggering me. At the time, I couldn't think of anything. Until a specific day came, and I broke down in tears for hours. It had been a long time since I'd allowed myself to do that. 😦 The majority of my breakdowns are quiet. Real quiet. … Continue reading In The Face of Trauma: Fatherless Daughter

Bear With Me

2021-12-17 Miss Poison Mourning, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Mourning, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

Hi, everyone! I'm having a rough time, and all this while I am working on so much for this site. 😦 I've already ruled out that I'm not having a heart attack, but man, everything feels so much worse right now. Let me be clear; death anniversaries are hard for me. They involve flashbacks and … Continue reading Bear With Me

Another Week, Another Needle, Or Three

2021-12-092021-12-10 Miss Poison Writing Goals, Health, Helping Yourself, Honesty, Hope, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Treatment Methods, Writing

It's been another one of those weeks where time has flown by, and I feel dizzy from the rush of it all. I realized this when traffic was backed up in Sumner Tunnel. The whooshing of the fact that you're underwater is the first thing you can feel, and it made me nauseous. Normally, tunnels … Continue reading Another Week, Another Needle, Or Three

Out of Time Blues

2021-11-232021-11-26 Miss Poison Writing Change, Chanukah, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Exhaustion, Family, Friends, Gratitude, Health, Honesty, Human Emotions, Interactions, New Beginnings, Opportunities, People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Thanksgiving, Work, Writing

I blinked and it's Thanksgiving week. How the hell did that happen?! The past two years have truly been a blur, and I definitely wasn't having any fun. Yesterday was the most Friday-feeling a Monday could be. I spent the entire afternoon confused about what day it was and what the damn time was. Genuinely … Continue reading Out of Time Blues

Crickets, Dark Depression, Change, & Investment Power

2021-11-132021-11-13 Miss Poison Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anxiety, Depression, Honesty, Mental Health, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Real Talk, Stress, Treatment Methods, Work, Writing

I haven't written anything here in a while, and I have my reasons. No, I wasn't too busy. I was stuck in my own head, with my own thoughts, and then I had work in front of me which I was so determined to get done. Most of it went great, but now I've got … Continue reading Crickets, Dark Depression, Change, & Investment Power

I Want To Live…

Quote 2021-10-232021-10-26 Miss Poison Quotes Audre Lorde, Inspiration, Life, Love, Quotes, Working, Writing

“I want to live the rest of my life, however long or short, with as much sweetness as I can decently manage, loving all the people I love, and doing as much as I can of the work I still have to do. I am going to write fire until it comes out of my … Continue reading I Want To Live…

Judaism is NOT “just” a religion…

2021-10-142021-10-16 Miss Poison Images/Photos/Quotes, Judaism Hen Mazzig, Honesty, Images/Photos/Quotes, Judaism, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I've had to say this to a LOT of people over the past few years. They would then argue this with me. 🙄 Yes, every single one argued it because they weren't educated to have this knowledge. Sorry, Not Sorry; these are the #Facts. There are only a few who wanted to learn from me, … Continue reading Judaism is NOT “just” a religion…

Kicked In The Heart

2021-09-182021-09-18 Miss Poison Writing Coping Mechanisms, Done, Heart, Honesty, Love, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Shut Down, Trauma, Writing

As you evolve, you learn things about yourself. It's important to me to always be evolving, to always have goals, dreams, and to keep achieving. One of the most crucial things I learned, many years ago, was to eliminate jealousy completely. I'm a Scorpio, and we're known for being jealous individuals when it comes to … Continue reading Kicked In The Heart

Ink To Paper

2021-08-292021-08-30 Miss Poison Writing Challenging Moments, Honesty, Manuscripts, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, The Writing Process, Thoughts, Writing

Hello, everyone! Despite being under the weather, I wanted to take a break from the manuscript I am working on and see what I could bring to all of you fine individuals today. 🙂 Writing is going incredibly well, knock on wood. 110,000 words in approximately six weeks, minus things I ended up cutting. That … Continue reading Ink To Paper

Always A Funeral…

2021-08-24 Miss Poison Funerals, Mourning, Writing Being Present, Catholicism, Faith, Funerals, Honesty, Judaism, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Respect, Spirituality, Writing

If I tallied up all the funerals I have been to, it would be a percentage of over 99%. How many weddings have I been to? Three. Please don't invite me to anything you don't truly want me to attend. Let me clarify that my own family has chosen to exclude me from every wedding, … Continue reading Always A Funeral…