Tracking The Time

2021-02-24 Miss Poison Mourning, Writing Emotional Pain, February, Loss, Love, Mourning, My Mother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing

The loss of my mother haunts me. How could it not? I know not everyone has a deep bond with either parent, and others have different scenarios of their family dynamic, which I understand, but my mother was my best friend. I was never embarrassed of her or ashamed of her. I took care of … Continue reading Tracking The Time

I’ve Built…

2021-02-192021-02-20 Miss Poison Writing Chronic Migraines, Chronic Pain, CRPS, Facts, Fibromyalgia, Honesty, Invisible Illnesses, Mental Health, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Relationships, Struggles, Texas, Writing

It has always been important to me to be transparent about my shortcomings and the strengths. I don't try to pretty anything up. Too often, people pretend their lives are so perfect online, with perfectly posed, edited photos, but you never see the truth of what goes on behind closed doors because all they care … Continue reading I’ve Built…

Run or Scatter?

2021-02-10 Miss Poison Images/Photos/Quotes, Writing Ancestry, Disgusting Behavior, Honesty, Life, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Privilege, Stephanie Bennett-Henry, Writing

Life experience has taught me, time and again, that everyone leaves eventually. I had to learn, really young, to be my own best friend and rely, as much as possible, on myself and no one else. I was thirty years old, long before ever turning thirty. It was a blessing and a curse. Early maturity … Continue reading Run or Scatter?

Stressors and Triggers

2021-02-082021-02-09 Miss Poison Images/Photos/Quotes, Writing Feelings, Images/Photos/Quotes, Musings, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Triggers, Writing

I intended to write something specific today, but my mood is bringing me deep down. That's when I know I need a break, a distraction, and perhaps a six month long vacation away from daily stressors and triggers. Alas, I settled for a stack of good books. When you're writing about certain topics, it is … Continue reading Stressors and Triggers

What Are You Looking For In A Therapist?

2021-02-032021-02-04 Miss Poison Mental Health, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Brutal Honesty, Medical Abuse, Medical Trauma, Mental Health, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Therapists, Therapy, Writing

You've seen the title of this piece, so let me start by saying this question has been asked of me by my doctor, and it's a long story. Overall, my best response was, "Someone who isn't an asshole. Someone who isn't going to waste my time, and someone whose office I will not leave more … Continue reading What Are You Looking For In A Therapist?

Where Did This Month Go?

2021-01-312021-02-01 Miss Poison Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing American Heart Association, American Heart Month, Awareness, Congenital Heart Disease, Genetic Disorders, Health, Heart Attacks, Heath, January, Musings, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I blinked and it is January 31st. Another mindfuck. I've had a lot to say, a lot to think about, and a lot I didn't write this month. I'd start to say something and it would irk me, so I'd draft it and move on. In the meantime, I did manage to read over sixty … Continue reading Where Did This Month Go?

Writing, Reading, and Trying To Stay Focused

2021-01-12 Miss Poison Writing Books, Creativity, Focus, January, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reading, Work, Writing

It was a bizarre first week of January, to say the least. I'm going to try not to talk about what happened at the Capitol Building because my brain is still trying to process the remnants of the act. I didn't know how much it would trigger my PTSD. Especially as someone I am familiar … Continue reading Writing, Reading, and Trying To Stay Focused

PTSD Flashbacks

2021-01-112021-01-12 Miss Poison Images/Photos/Quotes, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Honesty, Mental Health, Mental Health Awareness, Mental Health Monday, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Trauma, Writing

I always talk about my personal experiences when I am dealing with subject matter for #MentalHealthMonday. All forms of trauma require #Awareness. Almost four years ago, I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD. Thanks to several bad doctors and three lousy therapists post-diagnosis (My Massachusetts based experiences, only.), I struggle at times with how traumatized I … Continue reading PTSD Flashbacks

Numb Dismay

2021-01-07 Miss Poison Writing America, Anger, Dismay, Musings, Numb, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Political Turmoil, Sadness, Writing

It's hard not to be angry and numb today as an #American. I've seen a lot of ugly, racist comments made, all under the guise of, "If those people had been…" Just stop. I don't want to see ANYONE shot, choked, tear-gassed, or harmed because of one psychotic person who bought an election in this … Continue reading Numb Dismay

Discussions of Funerals and Such

2021-01-05 Miss Poison Loss, Writing COVID-19, Cultures, Customs, Family, Friends, Funerals, Grief, Honesty, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reality, Sadness, Writing

Today is the funeral of a friend of the family who died as a result of Covid 19. My brother is there now, and there's nothing I can do except be encouraging, even though it puts me into the headspace where I relive every funeral I've ever been to. Funerals aren't usually anyone's cup of … Continue reading Discussions of Funerals and Such