Life’s Battles & Celebrations

2016-09-26 Miss Poison Birthdays, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Birthdays, Heartache, Life, My Brother, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Torture, Warrior On, Writing

Last year, the day after my birthday, my brother was diagnosed with congestive heart failure that required a quadruple bypass. It was an extremely scary time in which I functioned on G-d only knows what, and forced myself to remain strong through prayer and talking to people who did their best to emotionally support me … Continue reading Life’s Battles & Celebrations

Strength Through Adversity

2016-09-082016-09-08 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Prayer, Proofreading, Writing Fibromyalgia Pain, Honesty, Life, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Prayer, Strength, Stress, Writing

Week two of this 10 level Fibro flare. Each day I have said "Tomorrow." Yesterday I said "Self-care and work.", because walking was out of the question in terms of pain, and even when the edge was taken off, I was concerned about further damage. Waking up at 1:00 a.m. two days in a row … Continue reading Strength Through Adversity

August Ends

2016-08-31 Miss Poison August, Honesty, Life, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, September, Writing August, Fall, Happiness, Healing, Health, Honesty, Life, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, September, Summer, Writing

It's no secret; I HATE summer. Unbearable heat, humidity, endless days of sun; they simply weren't meant for someone like me. Fall is my favorite season (Two guesses why.), but Winter is a close second. That is why I am relieved to say goodbye to August and hello to the cooler temperatures ahead. This year … Continue reading August Ends

Today Doesn’t Feel Like A Monday

2016-08-292016-08-30 Miss Poison Life, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Uncategorized, Writing Fundraiser, Honesty, Life, Medication, My Brother, Pain, People Helping People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Tragedy, Writing

Hello everyone! I haven't been around much of late, and for that I am sorry, even though I know apologies aren't necessary. I am dealing with a family crisis and quite frankly, I've lost my temper and I'm one of the most unpleasant people at the moment to deal with (not that I'm all that … Continue reading Today Doesn’t Feel Like A Monday

One Day Too Many

2016-08-22 Miss Poison Anger, Honesty, Musings, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Anger, Being Pushed Too Far, Family, Honesty, Missing Persons, My Brother, People, Poison In Lethal Doses, Rage, The Crap I Deal With, Writing

If you've never had a loved one go missing; you're damn lucky. If you've never lost anyone close to you, especially a family member, you are luckier still. I have spent most of my life watching family members leave this plane of existence for another. I've written too many eulogies and speeches not to feel … Continue reading One Day Too Many

My Brother Is Missing

2016-08-15 Miss Poison Grief/Grieving, Honesty, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Writing Fear, Grief, Missing Person, My Brother, Writing

I called the police this morning to report my brother missing. I have been freaked out, in a terrible panic, since Friday morning. I cannot sleep, I'm having trouble functioning on all cylinders, and I'm concerned because it's clear that no one gives a fuck but me. Apparently to the cops, my reporting him missing … Continue reading My Brother Is Missing

Rough Waters

2016-05-30 Miss Poison Life, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Battles, Challenges, Heartache, Life, Love, My Brother, Pain, Surgery, Writing

My brother was rushed into emergency surgery Saturday. I spent most of the day stressed out, upset, trying to reach him. Most of my text messages sounded frantic, but that's precisely how I felt. I already knew he was in the hospital, but I'm used to hearing from him semi-regularly, so when I go nearly … Continue reading Rough Waters

My Apologies

2015-11-232015-11-24 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Fibromyalgia, Heart Health, Honesty, Life, Life Vest, Migraines, My Brother, Pain, Patient X, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Thanksgiving, Writing

Hi everyone! I know this isn't a typical visiting experience at the moment, but I assure you I am doing my best. When you're caring for a post-op heart patient, every single day blends into the one before. I likely wouldn't know it was Monday if I hadn't intentionally bypassed Friday and Saturday's normal routine … Continue reading My Apologies

Patient X

2015-11-16 Miss Poison Honesty, Life, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Health, Heart Health, Heart Surgery, Honesty, Life, Medication, Musings, My Brother, Patient X, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

Patient X is being released into my care this evening after major surgery at the beginning of the month. Discharge was repeatedly delayed by post-op illness and absolute idiocy on the part of doctors arguing over proper procedure. It took them nearly a week to discover that he had not one, but two separate infections. … Continue reading Patient X

Situation Or Depression? There’s A Difference

2015-11-122015-11-12 Miss Poison Battles, Depression, Honesty, Life, Mental Health, Musings, November, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Things That Enrage Me, Unnecessary Drama, Writing Depression, Heart Surgery, Honesty, Life, Mental Health, Musings, My Brother, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

I had a major meltdown Monday. I can't recall the last time I felt that alone, that isolated from my friends & family, or that upset. I'm certain it's happened before, but Monday was simply too much, too soon, and way too intensely upsetting. I vividly remember scrolling through my contacts list at one point, … Continue reading Situation Or Depression? There’s A Difference