When You Come Out Of The Grips…

“When you come out of the grips of a depression there is an incredible relief, but not one you feel allowed to celebrate. Instead, the feeling of victory is replaced with anxiety that it will happen again, and with shame and vulnerability when you see how your illness affected your family, your work, everything left … Continue reading When You Come Out Of The Grips…

People Assume…

“Mental illness. People assume you aren’t sick unless they see the sickness on your skin, like scars forming a map of all the ways you’re hurting. My heart is a prison of, Have you trieds. 'Have you tried exercising? Have you tried eating better? Have you tried not being sad, not being sick? Have you … Continue reading People Assume…

Yesterday

Yesterday was one of the most jolting experiences I've ever personally witnessed. It might rank up in my top five. My body is still in fight or flight mode, and I don't feel it ending any time soon. 😦 I have tried to take my anger out of the equation, but that has left me … Continue reading Yesterday

Sadness Had Very Little To Do With It

“It wasn't that she was sad—sadness had very little to do with it, really, considering that most of the time, she felt close to nothing at all. Feeling required nerves, connections, sensory input. The only thing she felt was numb. And tired. Yes, she very frequently felt tired.” ―Nenia Campbell