“Time is ungovernable, but grief presents us with a choice: what do we do with the savage energies of bereavement? What do we do with the memory - or in the memory - of the beloved? Some commemorate love with statuary, but behavior, too, is a memorial, as is a well-lived life. In death, there … Continue reading Time Is Ungovernable…
Pieces Of Me
Black New Moon In Taurus
Closing out the month of April on a high-ish note. Change is coming, and I am preparing for it to the best of my ability. This month was rough, and I am trying to recover to avoid issues with trauma moving forward. Anyone who has been reading my work for more than a year knows … Continue reading Black New Moon In Taurus
Chronic Pain Scale
This is relatable, I've been between a 12-16 most of the week, and it has been A WEEK. Here's hoping I feel better soon, or at the very least, less pain.
Sinking
The precise word I've used to describe the hell I've been going through is, "Sinking." I say this to my doctor at least twice a month; "I'm sinking." He gets a confused/torn look on his face and tries to distract me with questions. I'm thisclose to losing my patience. 🙄 I worry that one day, … Continue reading Sinking
Chronic Insomnia & Trying To Combat Terrorism
I only have a few days to recalibrate before I have to force myself to function like a "normal" human-being. I can't exactly walk into multiple doctor's appointments and fall asleep, though that might help the message sink in for some of them. I've been trying so hard and today I failed. Epically. I hardly … Continue reading Chronic Insomnia & Trying To Combat Terrorism
The Truth, The Pain, The Breakdown, & The Small Breakthrough
Many, many years ago I read 'An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness' by Kay Redfield-Jamison. Anyone who suffers from any form of depression, or any form of mental illness (I hate this phrase. It was once referred to, and sometimes still is, as "behaviorial health". No, this is completely off-base. These phrases … Continue reading The Truth, The Pain, The Breakdown, & The Small Breakthrough
Impolite Zionist
I'm fed up. I'm also sick and tired of this. Leading up to every major Jewish holiday, attacks begin in earnest and it triggers everyone's PTSD. People I know have spent so much time on the phone of late, trying to track down relatives after each attack. This is not how anyone should have to … Continue reading Impolite Zionist
Loss, Grief, and Solitude
I don't have much to offer right now. The past few days have been fraught with sad news. My best friend buried her Grandfather (It took a few days for the body to be flown out of the United States to its final resting place.), and the other is burying her father, who passed away … Continue reading Loss, Grief, and Solitude
