Questioning Everything

2017-09-062017-09-06 Miss Poison Writing Back Pain, Chronic Pain, DACA, Doctor Drama, Fibromyalgia, Health, Musings, Neck Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

Hello everyone. 🙂 I've been both present and not-so present around here for quite some time, mostly from an emotional standpoint. I'm not going to apologize for that. No one should ever apologize for taking care of themselves, or the crap in their lives. If someone tells you their life is perfect, I've got a … Continue reading Questioning Everything

Official?

2017-08-18 Miss Poison Writing Fibromyalgia, Health, Honesty, Musings, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I finally have documentation on my medical chart that I have Fibromyalgia. What I find odd is that the doctor didn't check for trigger points or question the discussion, she simply added it to my "history". If the original doctor who diagnosed me in 2003/2004 had remembered to put it in my chart back then, … Continue reading Official?

Life, On Hold

2017-08-12 Miss Poison Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Chronic Pain, Insomnia, Life, Medication, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Stress, Writing

I guess late Friday night has become my new "time to write". I have no idea when that became a thing, but let's roll with it, shall we? My big accomplishment this week was talking to my insurance company and getting an emergency reinstatement, all thanks to someone who knew what she was doing and … Continue reading Life, On Hold

You Only Get One Chance

2017-08-042017-08-12 Miss Poison Unbelievable Crap, Writing Doctors, Drama, Health, Musings, Observations, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing

I showed up for my doctor's appointment today and the office staff, who I can only describe as idiotically incompetent, something I don't normally say about this particular office, waited about ten minutes before informing me that my insurance had been terminated. To say I was outraged is a vast understatement. When they ask you … Continue reading You Only Get One Chance

Stressful Sleepless Nights

2017-07-31 Miss Poison Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Writing Fierce, Fighting, Insomnia, Musings, Pain, Passion, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Strength, Stress, Thought, Writing

I have long since passed "tired" and have reached a state of pure "painsomnia". No matter what I do, I am in too much pain to sleep properly, if at all. Physically, mentally, and emotionally, I'm not in the correct head-space to allow my body to rest as it needs to. It's twisted when anyone … Continue reading Stressful Sleepless Nights

One Morning

Image 2017-07-25 Miss Poison Images/Photos/Quotes, Pieces Of Me Honesty, Images/Photos/Quotes, Life, Loyalty, Pieces Of Me

Someone wrote this with me in mind, or at least, that's how it feels today.

The Summer Of ‘What The Fuck?’

2017-07-21 Miss Poison Writing Honesty, July, Mourning, Musings, Observations, Pain, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Sadness, Writing

I promised myself certain aspects of this year would be better, and they have been, but the rest of the year, thus far, has been a shit-show of epic proportions. I am so thrown by it all, I probably say "What the fuck?!" fifty times a day, if not more. I've talked about it, so … Continue reading The Summer Of ‘What The Fuck?’

Writing With Purpose

2017-07-182017-07-20 Miss Poison Boundaries, Writing Authenticity, Being Real, Boundaries, Honesty, Musings, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Privacy, Purpose, Writing

I've had a couple of rough weeks, though in truth, I'd have to say "rough decade", but I'd prefer to focus on the present. Some of it I would prefer to address in a future piece that is nearly completed, but the rest I'd like to get out of my system. Unfortunately, I don't even … Continue reading Writing With Purpose

Trying To Cope

2017-07-06 Miss Poison Writing Emotional Pain, Emotional Support, Family, Friends, Honesty, Hurting, Loved Ones, Pain, People, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Suffering, Upset, Writing

Have you ever wondered if you're trying too hard? If you have to question yourself, then you probably are. But what if you're being told that you aren't trying hard enough? It's incredibly confusing, and downright counterintuitive, to have someone tell you you're not trying hard enough when they don't actually see how hard you … Continue reading Trying To Cope

Incurable

2017-07-042017-07-04 Miss Poison Writing Doctors, Emotional Support, Family, Friends, Honesty, Incurable Illness, Life, Musings, Pain, Patients, Pieces Of Me, Poison In Lethal Doses, Reality, Suicide, Truth, Twitter, Writing

***Potential Trigger Warning*** Friday night, I stupidly read my new diagnosis for the first time. And then I sat here in tears. The old diagnosis, which I've had for a long time, is … Continue reading Incurable