The precise word I've used to describe the hell I've been going through is, "Sinking." I say this to my doctor at least twice a month; "I'm sinking." He gets a confused/torn look on his face and tries to distract me with questions. I'm thisclose to losing my patience. 🙄 I worry that one day, … Continue reading Sinking
Poison In Lethal Doses
Chronic Insomnia & Trying To Combat Terrorism
I only have a few days to recalibrate before I have to force myself to function like a "normal" human-being. I can't exactly walk into multiple doctor's appointments and fall asleep, though that might help the message sink in for some of them. I've been trying so hard and today I failed. Epically. I hardly … Continue reading Chronic Insomnia & Trying To Combat Terrorism
The Truth, The Pain, The Breakdown, & The Small Breakthrough
Many, many years ago I read 'An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness' by Kay Redfield-Jamison. Anyone who suffers from any form of depression, or any form of mental illness (I hate this phrase. It was once referred to, and sometimes still is, as "behaviorial health". No, this is completely off-base. These phrases … Continue reading The Truth, The Pain, The Breakdown, & The Small Breakthrough
Impolite Zionist
I'm fed up. I'm also sick and tired of this. Leading up to every major Jewish holiday, attacks begin in earnest and it triggers everyone's PTSD. People I know have spent so much time on the phone of late, trying to track down relatives after each attack. This is not how anyone should have to … Continue reading Impolite Zionist
Loss, Grief, and Solitude
I don't have much to offer right now. The past few days have been fraught with sad news. My best friend buried her Grandfather (It took a few days for the body to be flown out of the United States to its final resting place.), and the other is burying her father, who passed away … Continue reading Loss, Grief, and Solitude
Fight Like Zel
When the President of a democracy says, "I don't need a ride, I need ammo.", it speaks to his character. Essentially, he doesn't have to stay behind, but he has. The bravery and commitment is admirable. Historically, Kings would go into battle. Sometimes they'd die in battle, but they still fought for their beliefs and … Continue reading Fight Like Zel
Grieving… It’s A Process
“Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep.I am in a thousand winds that blow, I am the softly falling snow.I am the gentle showers of rain, I am the fields of ripening grain.I am in the morning hush, I am in the graceful rushOf beautiful birds … Continue reading Grieving… It’s A Process
Mood For 2022
This is me every year, for the most part. I'd say less than five percent of my personal life is shared here, but it may seem like more to some people.
Cleansing The Silent Anger
Over the past year, a lot has changed for me. Wonderful things, many wonderful opportunities. Amazing things which I've kept quiet about because I firmly believe in not feeding my own ego. I take a victorious moment and then I might share it with my nearest and dearest (Not always.), but I don't make a … Continue reading Cleansing The Silent Anger
