I legitimately believe that Fibromyalgia, for me, began around age six and progressively worsened in my late teens. I might never be able to prove it, but at least now, I know the signs so that future generations don’t have to suffer or be told they “just have growing pains”. I’ve been tested like a science experiment since I was eight and I do wonder at times if I’ve been misdiagnosed or if there’s more to Fibromyalgia than doctors will ever realize. It’s important to spread as much awareness as we can.
Year: 2015
New Moon In Libra
Tonight is the New Moon in Libra. This is a time to find a real balance in our life physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. With the waves from the lunar eclipse still rippling through the atmosphere, it might be a good time to stand still, take a breath and center yourself.
With this New Moon you may be feeling irritated, misunderstood and have little patience for people, this can lead to arguments and upset. We may be initiating ourselves into a process of truly feeling all our wounds, pain, anger, and rage. Try to stay calm and weather the storm as it will pass in the coming days. Think before reacting too quickly, try to come from a place of kindness and understanding, keep away from negative thinking.
The Libra New Moon will give us a bolt of energy, so if things have felt sluggish and slow lately get ready as things will now start to shift and move a lot faster. Use this energy to get jobs done and to shift things into a positive direction. This will be a productive New Moon, with a promise that the scales of justice will be balanced and we will get what we deserve, whatever work we put in we will get in return.
Uranus will play a big part in this New Moon as Uranus is associated with sudden changes and revelations that are unexpected and can be very exciting, so be ready for some big surprises coming over the next few weeks. You can use the Uranus energy to bring on big changes and transformation. Get rid of the old clutter holding you back to make room for new opportunities coming your way.
The message of this New Moon is to find balance, knowing when to push and when to rest. Take a step back and look at everything more clearly. Now is the time to start clearing out junk, both in our homes, work, and in our emotional lives. Expel negativity and try to let go of any bad thoughts and feelings by looking at how to improve any situations rather than just complain about them. The Libra New Moon holds magical healing power. We are in a profound cleansing and clearing cycle. Allow the deep emotions emerging from the unconscious to be healed.
Have a blessed New Moon and may the Goddess watch over you.
Written & photo credit goes to Wicca Teachings
Edited by Lisa Marino
Become A Possibilitarian…
“Become a possibilitarian. No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities — always see them, for they’re always there.” —Norman Vincent Peale
Do You Know Why Doctors Refuse To Prescribe Narcotics To Fibromyalgia Patients?
This happened to one of my doctors after he wrote a patient a prescription for about five pills to get her through a move so that she’d have medication until she was able to see a new doctor. The DEA showed up at his office and threw a fit over it, claiming that it was a bizarre amount of medication, demanding to see his files, etc. You would have thought he’d written her a prescription for 500 pills the way they behaved! He was told that he could no longer prescribe anything outside what is considered “normal” for his practice. Since that day, he has been scared to write prescriptions for certain things unless he’s working at the hospital where things are scrutinized a little less and even then, it’s got to be a big deal for him to break out the different prescription pad. I find it incredibly sad that doctors are being told how to treat their patients instead of doing what they feel is in a patient’s best interest. Unfortunately, there will always be people who will abuse the medications that chronic pain sufferers so desperately need.
This article isn’t well written, but I thought I’d share it regardless.
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“Oh, my friend, it’s not what they take away from you that counts. It’s what you do with what you have left.” -Hubert Humphrey
Time Is A Fickle Thing
This weekend has blown by. I’ve done so much in the last few days that I am struggling to move. The only thing that doesn’t hurt is my hair. 😦
My new mattress was delivered earlier in the evening. The irony that I’ll only get to sleep on it for the next three weeks is not lost on me. The sale was amazing, so I was able to get some other much-needed items that I wouldn’t normally spend money on, but I had a huge store credit to use up even after the mattress was factored in. The fact that they wouldn’t fork over the cash is the only reason I allowed myself that bit of “retail therapy”.
Naturally, delivery couldn’t just be an easy thing. As soon as the delivery guys lifted the mattress up, they discovered that the broken spring wasn’t just on the top side of the mattress where I discovered it and where the inspector had found and photographed it. It had cracked and busted through the other side of the mattress as well, putting a huge hole in the box spring, a hole that exceeds the one I saw on the surface of the mattress. I had to call the store and leave a message to let them know that one side of the box spring will need to be replaced, since it’s a split box spring to suit the size of my bed’s frame. I was mortified seeing that hole, because I regularly check these things and I never even thought to take a look at it when I discovered the hole in the mattress. You live, you learn. Thankfully, this new mattress is spring-free. I suspect I might actually sleep well tonight.
I tried doing some lighter stuff today to help my lower back heal a little before I tackle the heavier things, but I ended up boxing up some stuff for donation (clothes, stuffed animals that my Mom had collected that I am okay parting with, etc.), sorting through some of my books, and putting things aside for the library, my nail salon, and tossing an immense amount of items. I also did laundry that way I will get to my new place with clean clothes for late Fall/early Winter, I just have to fold it all and pack it up. I’ve damn near met the ten bag limit for tomorrow’s garbage pick-up, which makes me smile. You truly have no idea how much you own until you have to move. If it were up to me, I’d leave 75% of this stuff behind, but since I inherited the “stuff”, I feel responsible for it. The next time I have to move, it will be the most minimalist move I can manage. I am determined to make that happen. I would prefer to leave my life and have memories as opposed to “stuff”. Music, books, art, photos, and jewelry are the only exceptions to the minimalist concept. Let’s not discuss my collection of bridal magazines that are in perfect shape that I will be putting out for recycling later in the week. I think there are three full boxes chock full of them, along with a smattering of other magazines that I definitely do not need to keep. It’s probably 100 pounds of printed paper. Note to self: You’re not allowed to subscribe to anything ever again, not even a free subscription. It’s not necessary. Read it and toss it like a normal person!
I wish I’d had more downtime to read and catch up on my DVR queue, but it just wasn’t possible. While waiting for the delivery men I watched (which means I fast-forwarded through all the commercials) The Originals (One of the BEST episodes ever. Kudos to Joseph Morgan & Daniel Gillies.), Bones, The Player (If you haven’t seen this show, I highly recommend it. Philip Winchester is AMAZING.), and after dinner I watched the finale of Strike Back, which is the ONLY series finale of any show that actually made me smile. Normally I am left with a “Who the fuck wrote this crap?” moment, but this one was outstanding. I love that show and will miss it terribly. Nothing else like it on TV.
I’ve got a ton of things to do this week. I have writing assignments to either complete or get started on, but I’m proud of the quality of the work I’ve already put in and I’m proud of the topics for the pieces I haven’t begun working on yet. All in all, the writing aspect of my life is doing what it’s supposed to do. When you don’t force it, or yourself, your work is ten times better than if you sit and stare at the screen in an attempt to “be a writer”. And yes, that’s a subject that will be covered in the coming weeks.
And so my lovelies, that was my weekend in a nutshell. I spared you the gory details out of the kindness of my heart. 😛
If you’re not watching football or baseball at the moment, I hope you’re getting ready for the week ahead and resting well. I am about to shut everything down for the night and get into bed. Really, just sitting here is so comfortable that my repeatedly broken tailbone doesn’t hurt at all. That’s unheard of since I normally can’t sit on any surface for very long without a small amount of pain in that part of my body, so I hope this is a sign of good things to come.
I’ll be back with more interesting things soon. Until next time, remember that while 40 may be the new 20, kindness is also the new black. 😉
Also, I am sending out prayers to my best friend in Israel who e-mailed me earlier today to let me know about the bombing near her home. There is absolutely NO reason why she should have to feel like a prisoner in the country she was born & raised in. Something has GOT to be done to keep the citizens of Israel safe from terror. Hell hath no fury if someone harms one of my best friends. I pray things settle down soon.
Laila Tov,
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Self-Doubt Can Easily…
“Self-doubt can easily become the cause of every missed step in life. Self-doubt steals dreams, denies hope, and assassinates faith. Know that you know what you are doing. When you do what feels right for you, know that you know it is right for you.” —Iyanla Vanzant
Written by LISA MARINO-Molchanova 