Sixteen Years

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Today was incredibly somber for me, and I am certain other people felt this way, as well. Every year, a deep part of me re-lives 9/11. I wasn’t afraid, not for a second, but I was definitely in silent, angry shock. Sixteen years later, I still can’t believe all that has transpired since that day.

I haven’t been back home in a long time. I miss it. I’ll never stop being proud of where I come from. My city, every part of it, is deeply enmeshed in who I am. Someone told me that they like where I live now “because it’s kind of like New York, but much smaller”. Yeah, not so much.

The Never-ending Nightmare

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After two conversations with my doctor’s office in the past two days, I finally put my foot down and demanded a referral to a Rheumatologist. I feel like I’M the doctor, because it’s been three weeks and they still haven’t managed to acquire my records from other physicians. I was told to reach out to them… I did not realize it was part of ,my job description. I’m fed up and I’m tired of being told my neck/back/spine is “just a muscle thing”. No, it isn’t. I’m many things, but dumb isn’t one of them. So yeah, it’s been a frustrating week, to say the least.