My Body

“My body thinks something is gravely wrong, but my brain doesn’t have a clue what to do about it, so it starts racing to the worst possible conclusions.” –Unknown

I’ve been sitting here for a few hours now, trying to talk myself down from a horrible panic attack. I even took something to try and nip it in the bud, but thus far, it’s not helping. I detest being stressed out like this, to the point where the anxiety overtakes everything. Someone told me last night that something is triggering it. I immediately figured out what one of my triggers is, and I’m NOT okay with it. I hate being lying to. I hate people breaking their promises to me, and I hate feeling like this.

If you really love and care about someone, you don’t go out of your way to hurt them. I legitimately want to sit and cry. Here’s hoping the feeling passes.

There Is A Madness In The False World

“There is a madness in the false world we have created; that world’s only lessons are tension and fear — relax into yourself. Take your lessons from nature. Let quietness instruct you. If you pay attention and listen to quietness, you will notice a nearly imperceptible thread of consciousness, like a quiet hum or a perception of time. We have all noticed this feeling when we have been alone in nature, or in a quiet room. This space of consciousness peacefully advances — undisturbed by the surface tensions in your responsive mind. You can move into this space of mind at will; you are a dimension of this awareness. You are this calm thread of awareness witnessing the gentle unfolding of your perfect self. When you commune with your ever-present inner calm, you are released from the madness and pain of all outer turmoil. Your unstoppable nature is becoming and blooming — you simply, are. Go easy. Don’t search for your purpose. You are not defining your purpose — your purpose is defining you. You are unfolding with profound purpose; your purpose is revealing you, to yourself. Run to yourself. Life is so big. Do not try to fill it. Instead, expand within. You are enough for you. —Bryant McGill

When Someone You Love Dies

“When someone you love dies, and you’re not expecting it, you don’t lose her all at once; you lose her in pieces over a long time—the way the mail stops coming, and her scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in her closet and drawers. Gradually, you accumulate the parts of her that are gone. Just when the day comes—when there’s a particular missing part that overwhelms you with the feeling that she’s gone, forever—there comes another day, and another specifically missing part.” ―John Irving

This Bitter Language

“I know your streets, sweet city,

I know the demons and angels that flock and roost in your boughs like birds.

I know you, river, as if you flowed through my heart.

I am your warrior daughter.

There are letters made of your body as a fountain is made of water.

There are languages of which you are the blueprint and as we speak them the city rises.”

Elka Cloke

 

There Is A Tonic Strength…

“There is a tonic strength, in the hour of sorrow and affliction, in escaping from the world and society and getting back to the simple duties and interests we have slighted and forgotten. Our world grows smaller, but it grows dearer and greater. Simple things have a new charm for us, and we suddenly realize that we have been renouncing all that is greatest and best, in our pursuit of some phantom.” ―William George Jordan

Living With Integrity

“Living with integrity means: Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships. Asking for what you want and need from others. Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension. Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values. Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe.”
Barbara De Angelis

The Quickest Way

“The quickest way to block your in-flow of good is to begrudge someone else what they have. There are three principles of prosperity we must observe to ensure we receive our good: (1) Ask for what you want, (2) Give what you want away, (3) Be willing to see someone else get what you want before you do. When we follow these principles, we demonstrate our faith that no matter what we have, there is more than enough to go around.” —Iyanla Vanzant