Be Patient. Be Present. Be Grateful.

Today I want to express my gratitude to, and for, my best friend. It’s her birthday and I would not survive from year-to-year without her support, absolute dedication to our friendship, and her unconditional love. She is the most amazing, talented, kind, caring person who is so devoted to family and friends. She has an amazing heart. I am so grateful to not only have her as my sister, but to have her as a true best friend. I thank G-d for blessing me (and the world) with her existence. She is my compass and constant Girl’s Girl. As I told her the other day, WE ARE A TEAM.

Life is as long as it is short, and we NEED real friends in our corner. Relationships come and go. We lose people along the way. It’s a vicious cycle, and many of us have more in common than we realize. No matter how many demons or dragons I have to slay, I know she’s got my back with a fresh sword, and that means everything to me.

Happy birthday, Shan-Shan. Love you.

Fourth of July Caturday

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This year was extremely frightening and traumatizing for my cats. They were terrified in a way I have never seen before and I pray I never see it again. I am outraged by the crap my neighbors pulled. The streets were full of smoke, cars couldn’t get through, and it was a major problem waiting to happen if, G-d forbid, an ambulance or fire truck needed to get through. Visibility was extremely poor. Whatever people are using that sounds like an explosion going off was awful for my own trauma history. I’m actually relieved I have a phone appointment with my doctor next week. This was BAD and continues to be worse with every passing moment.

International Sand Sculpture Contest

Revere Beach is the first public beach in the United States (1896) and it’s absolutely gorgeous. Every year, since 2004, people from all over the world come to the area for a three day competition to design the creations before you, and it’s estimated that roughly one million people flock in to see these designs.
I was disappointed by this year’s winner, but I think it’s safe to say these are all pretty unique. If you’re ever in Boston, this is a place worth a few hours of your time. It’s a five mile long beach. 🌊🐚🌅🏄🌞

Independence Day 2019

giphy-1Wishing everyone a happy, healthy, SAFE 4th of July.

I’m honestly just waiting until Urgent Care reopens tomorrow afternoon. A nineteen day migraine is too much pain for anyone to endure. My headache specialist is out of the country, but her executive assistant promised that either my doctor or the covering attending would make sure that a note goes into my file, that way I get the correct treatment protocol. Worst case scenario; they have to page the doctor on call. That’s fine. But this girl ISN’T setting foot in their emergency room unless I’m completely dead.

My brother’s heart surgery is tomorrow morning. Quick prayer for him, mostly because he started a fight with me yesterday when I was verifying info with him and asked for the surgeon to call me and let me know he made it through. Apparently THAT is considered “dramatic”. No, it’s fucking realistic. I just CAN’T absorb anymore negativity or drama from a person who DOESN’T have their shit together or the emotional capacity to understand how concerned I am.

Basic facts: Showing someone love, support, and concern ISN’T “dramatic”. If I ask someone how they’re doing or if they’re okay, IT’S GENUINE CONCERN. I’m tired of people twisting my words and actions. In fact, I’m fucking sick of it. If you’re unsure what I mean; VERIFY, do NOT assume. Ugh.

For those unaffected by today, I hope your day was superior to mine. ✌

July

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If you saw the look on my face when I say the word “July”, you would know precisely how disgusted I am during the summer. I have never enjoyed the heat and humidity, but it’s even worse when the heat can easily trigger a migraine for you. I’ve been experiencing them on and off with so much regularity, I have reached the point where I wonder if ANY treatment method is going to be helpful when I have so many environmental triggers.

July is a difficult month for me from an emotional standpoint, too, but it doesn’t have it be. I am doing my best, and we;ll leave it at that for now.

Stay safe and comfortable.

P.S. Happy Canada Day to all of our neighbors to the North. 🙂