A Lot Of People Don’t Heal

“A lot of people don’t heal, and it manifests in a lot of different ways throughout their lives,” she said once. “Because when trauma doesn’t get to work itself through your system, your system idles at a heightened state, and so getting more really intense input calms your system down.” Which is why, Meredith said, “A lot of folks who’ve survived trauma end up being really calm in crisis and freaking out in everyday life.” ―Mac McClelland

Tossing Humor Around

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I’ve experienced this type of situation. The interaction went like this: Cashier: “Do you want it warmed up?” Customer: “Can you like toast it in the microwave or something?” Me: Oh.My.GOD. My brother: “You can’t hit her.” Me: “Why is there a Valley girl on line ahead of me? I just want coffee!? And I don’t speak like an idiot.” My brother: “You can’t punch her or knock her out. The cops are too close and there are cameras here.” Me, after she gets her “toasted in the microwave item”: “How do people like that FUNCTION in this world?” Person behind me: “Watch, she’ll be a politician or a politician’s hooker.” #WelcomeToNewYork 

Sadness Had Very Little To Do With It

“It wasn’t that she was sad—sadness had very little to do with it, really, considering that most of the time, she felt close to nothing at all. Feeling required nerves, connections, sensory input. The only thing she felt was numb. And tired. Yes, she very frequently felt tired.” ―Nenia Campbell