I feel jet-lagged and incapable of moving almost every muscle in my body today. I can’t truly afford to take the day off, but I have no choice. I am sitting here and my eyes are barely open, my brain is barely functioning, and yet, I know full well that I got a full night’s sleep. Have I mentioned that I HATE turning the clocks forward?! It is a crime against the body.
I’m in a little less pain than yesterday, but I suspect there’s something waiting around the bend. After all, Fibromyalgia loves nothing more than to lull you into a false sense of security in your body’s pain threshold before it knocks you back on your ass, unable to breathe. I went to bed last night in severe agony. I even looked in the mirror to make sure my spine wasn’t bruised. The never-ending grind on the body is tiresome and depressing. There are moments when you question whether or not you’re actually alive or if you’re simply living in a nightmare, unable to wake up. At any given moment, it’s truly a toss-up.
Not even caffeine can keep me awake, so I am going to close my eyes and allow myself the rest my body is screaming for, even though it makes me feel terrible about my place in this world. If you know someone who suffers from any form of daily pain, send them a kind word this week and let them know you’re praying for them, care about them, or that you are simply available to listen. Oftentimes, those are the things sufferers of any form of chronic pain need the most.
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Written by LISA MARINO-Molchanova 
I have a day like that as well today ((((hugs))))
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They’re never easy, are they? I feel AWFUL physically, but I’m beating myself up emotionally, which is wrong.
I hope you will feel better soon. It’s always nice to see a comment from you. 🙂
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I hope you feel better soon too. Days like this are horrible. Beating yourself up doesn’t help, but it’s much easier said than done to just go with the flow of it.
It’s not your fault. It’s this sodding, poxy, bloody illness!! It actually feels good to hurl abuse at it 😀
Tomorrow is another day! Hope its a better one for both of us xx
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Scorpions, are we not already a complex group? Im way over lying here unable to sleep, as my whole body, inside and out has me so ill, I question what is really behind these vicious unrelenting and mysterious autoimmune illnesses?
I too, beat myself up; I cant beat it yet! I appreciate knowing Im not alone!
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Me too! I also suffer from what is called Chronic Fatigue Immunesuppresent Syndrome/ME???
The question mark comes as the challenge to understand, treat and get the support needed still seems illusive!
Yet, when my immune system fails me, there is no holds bar on what my entire systems will endure; left frightened at what could truly could have caused this body such demise! Fibromyalgia and CFIS seem to intertwine symptom wise!
I am once again being attacked on both fronts, and I wonder, “Is this going to to be my demise?”
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Thank you for reminding people they’re not alone 🙂
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We often feel we are, but there is always someone out there battling the same shit. It would be nice if we could all band together.
Thanks for stopping by. I hope you will continue to read. 🙂
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