Trauma.

“Trauma. It doesn’t eke itself out over time. It doesn’t split itself into manageable bite-sized chunks and distribute itself equally throughout your life. Trauma is all or nothing. A tsunami wave of destruction.
A tornado of unimaginable awfulness that whooshes into your life – just for one key moment – and wreaks such havoc that, in just an instant, your whole world will never be the same again.” ―Holly Bourne